that's life.

jordan! :)

2011-12-28T22:16:00.002+08:00

blogworthy! :)
today in the middle of the day, outta the blue, randomly..

i received a call! :)

caller ID says it was an adult.
but on the other line, came the voice of a little kiddy saying "hello" :)
then he carried on to say smth repeatedly with me trying to understand what he said in vain. smth that sounded like outside? which kinda made me look outside my window. hahahaha x)

turns out little jordan wanted to call auntie talia and hence daddy helped make the call! :)

how cute was that! :)
totally made my day :)

wishful thinking

2011-08-17T11:23:00.003+08:00

do you wish sometimes you were older?
do you wish sometimes you knew more stuff?

well i'm wishing it now.
i wish i was older and knew more stuff.
i wish i knew what to say in situations like this.
i wish i knew what to do to help.
i wish i wasnt so inadequate that you wouldnt even think about confiding in me.

i wish i was better than this.
(or mebbe its just men being men, i guess i'll never know)
anyway, on a happier note!
uni has started again 6 weeks ago. seems like just yesterday but i'm in the middle of my LAST semester already! exciting! :)

been really busy lately.
uni.
work.
cert in childrens services.
pr issues.
postgrad matters.
scholarships (still scouting for them).

and last but not least.
new iPHONE!
with a hot pink case! *heh*

been taking up too much of my time playing games...
addictive.
should have known better than to get my iPhone so soon....
should have been my "reward" for graduating or smth..

so yeah :)
i'm now whatsapping! but you guys probably wont find me cuz its my aussie no :) which also mean i get to spend less time whatsapping unlike when i first whatsapped, it lasted 3hrs of nothing but whatsapping. hahahahaha.

ohoh, if you're playing citystory. add me as your neighbour pleaseeeeee: natyt

hahahahahaha.
i always knew iPhone wasnt gonna do me any good.
muahahaha!

til i grad! :)

excruciating :(

2011-06-09T23:08:00.003+08:00

studying is excruciating.
i'm stressed.
excruciatingly stressed that i wanna cry now :'(

conflicting cognitions if unresolved leads to psychopathology

need more time.
(maybe i should spend more time with God)
need more love.
(maybe i should spend more time with God)
maybe i should spend more time with God.

God-space

2011-05-25T21:15:00.005+08:00

i guess this has been bugging inside of me for a while now..
we tried sharing a glimpse of it during cell here, but it never seems to be enough to drive the point through.
so i guess i should be sharing this to the few left on the blogger society :)
but most of all, i should be sharing this no matter what and hopefully not just skim the surface of it nor sugar-coat it.

there's a space in your heart that only God can fill.

fullstop.

its a space that needs love, that space that seeks for unconditional positive regard, that space that once its filled, you're satisfied.

in society nowadays, there's so many things that can fill up that void for us. consumer's behaviour, materialism, technology, hobbies, education, idolising singers/dancers/talent shows, belief in your own strength/the self, relationships. its not wrong to have all these. you can buy all the pretty dresses and pretty shoes, you can keep upgrading gadgets or attend concerts and follow CDs/drama series.. but you'll always be chasing them, even the least, catching up with them. when iPhone3 comes out, there's talks about iPhone4. when iPhone4 comes out, there's talks about iPhone5..

i suppose the cracks would start to show when trying to use bgr to fill up that void. noone starts/gets into a relationship wanting it to end. you hope that in that relationship, you can find love, you can find acceptance, you can find maybe even a soul mate/future spouse. but then you find out that your bgf wasnt what you expected to be, and he/she doesnt seem to meet your needs and desires.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that..
if God doesnt fill that space in you, noone else would.
no matter how hard they try, you'll never be satisfied. you'll always be wanting more, it's never enough for you. but when God fills that space in you, its different. God - the never-ending source of unconditional love. imagine if the main source of unconditional love and acceptance takes that void/space in your heart, all your love needs and desires are taken care of. because that source is never-ending, no matter how much that heart leaks, it'll never run on empty. the best thing is that when God fills that space in you, God Himself becomes all you need, more than enough for you.

only then, will you be contented in every aspect of your life. whether izzit buying the latest technology, whether izzit your 50th pair of earrings (because they all look extremely pretty and you cant decide), or whether izzit your next bgr. you'll not longer be looking for smth to satisfy yourself (cravings etc).

may your STEP1 always be the first step with God.

(if only some would see this!)

only God

2011-05-14T13:04:00.002+08:00

only God can change hearts.
no matter what i say, no matter what i do, i cant make people love God the way i do, i cant make people put God first ahead of all their short-term goals like assignments, exams and studying.

only God can change hearts.
its not about me. its all about God.

Dear Lord,
Please work your miracle and let the Holy Spirit make your move here in melbourne.
In Jesus' name,
Amen

happy easter :)

2011-04-19T20:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY! :)
i certainly hope you're having a great time enjoying the AWESOME easter productions in SUNTEC! i'm enjoying mine with easter eggs which i know there isnt any in singapore! :D HAHAHA x) there isnt is therE? x)

anyhow, just thought of blogging to let you know i still miss you and think of everyone in CHC.

just over the weekend, i went up to adelaide and visited a church there by the name of paradise community church.
superficially, it felt like CHC :) blue lights on the stage with large LCD screens projected up by the sides :) contemporary setting with a full band and chairs laid out on the floors. a camera that pans the audience and stage on a crane like those in jw choir side and/or expo delta section :D wrapped up together with a charismatic preacher. nostalgic :)

and a little less superficially, the preacher inspired, challenged, and succeeded. he had a good message, not one that i can remember about now, but what i remember and brought back with me was much more precious than words of knowledge. twigged the service flow and ended with worship.

and then came the amazing presence of God.
oh how i miss that.
to those out there being able to constantly experience the presence of God in church, treasure and cherish that. always cherish that.

not only did that inspire and encourage me to hang on with that touch of God..
one special thing that happened was there was a lady that walked from row to row to shake the hands of EVERY single person seated before the service started. that was even more special because she did it on her own accord. noone ever does that nor have that happened to me before, but there was a warmth that came with it, especially being a visitor to a strange and new church. i guess not everyone treats people the same way this lady did. but she surely has loved everyone that morning with that quiet smile of love.

have a great easter one and all :)
much love from aussie :)

do everything in love

2011-03-30T13:43:00.004+08:00

just today, i was thinking it was time to blog soon.. but i didnt know what to actually blog about. but guess what, i've found smth that's worth noting down and mebbe remembering for quite a while! :)

When we lead w love, our source of str comes from Love. Love being infinite, our source of str will never run dry.

thanks kenneth! :)

[1 Cor 16:14]
"Do everything in love." :)

start of uni again!

2011-03-12T13:51:00.002+08:00

having made a promise to myself to blog more this year :)
that i shall just do right this moment :)

been really busy the past few weeks :)
school's juz begun! so had the classes and hecticness that comes together with school. having to read up on what's expected from you through the semester, assignments involved, if textbooks are needed and trying to get them at a cheaper rate...

being put in charge of smth means having to take responsibility for it inspite of everything you have on. being placed responsibility for things means you are the person someone else looks to for directions. and being a person whom someone else looks up to means you have to be ahead of it all and get organised and know what's going on yourself before you expect them to know what's going on.

1. Week0 orientation for my club-slash-lifegroup to gather forces
2. Week0 and Week1 conducting lifegroup that brings people together
3. Week1 orientation BARBEEQUEE which just ended a couple of hours ago :)

i guess on a whole it was considered a success :)
people kinda mingled during the introductory games.. although it feels like it all kinda died off after lunch but i guess i would still be happy about it :)

on a more personal side..
1. being back at work with my little kiddies! :) so trying to settle back into work routines and colleagues and kids...
2. starting my work placement every monday and wednesday evening...
3. getting the hang of teaching little kids at sunday school :)
4. unpacking and settling into my new house :) having just shifted into my new place last week. finding time to unpack everything has been HARD.

but i guess i'm juz getting the hang of it :)
yay :)

fell sick last week but getting MUCH better now :)
happy belated birthday daddy! :D

sad -> happy

2011-02-19T20:15:00.003+08:00

it doesn't matter if you're watching tv or having dinner, it's who you're with that matters, not what you're doing
- "Rumour has it"

i guess the past couple of days have been pretty bumpy for me personally. maybe its called jetlagging. but haven been sleeping well and hence been feeling all angsty inside. small matters can trigger sad faces ): and then a whole lot of blowing everything up in my mind cause even sadder faces.

i guess on one hand giving attention is representative of affection.
but i guess on the other hand, its not really what you're doing but just a matter of who you're with? i hope i'm right, but i guess, it makes me happier thinking this way so it shall be right anyhow. plus my latest addition to my DVD collection!! :) :) :)

so i'm a whole lot more happy faces :)
too bad it wasnt the 3 combo pack or what the cover supposedly said it is. that's what you get for a cheaper price :)

heart-to-heart daddy

2011-02-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

its like a rare few dad to daughter moment.

definitely needing to be remembered :)

i guess its odd how people say daughters talk only to mothers and sons to father but i guess somehow or another, its still interchangeable. doesnt matter who it is, its just the feeling of being safe and comforted in whatever things said or done.

trying to hold your emotions in, no matter how hard it is you try.

but when a dad just happens to be there and asks whats wrong, floods of emotions just burst forth somehow. maybe even months of emotions stored. and all you needed was just that shoulder to cry on, someone to hear you out and your thoughts and your feelings, and received with a hug and some words of experience :)

i love my dad :)

then there's my grandpa too :)

he's cute for someone his age :p

and loving for my grandpa :)

and who says only girls have heart to heart talks :)

*grins*

my holidays so far :)

2010-12-15T19:21:00.003+08:00

phew!
its been a longgggggg time :)

it doesnt seem like there's much going on but then again, it really has been AGES since i last posted a blog post here :)

well, its now 10days to CHRISTMAS!! :)
i've been holidaying and being a bum for the past few months to make the long story short :)

my sister graduated last saturday :)
GGRATSSSS NADDIEEEEE.
7years. FINALLY :p anyways, in case you didnt know, naddie's back in singapore already :) juz for about a week or less :) bug her you people in singapore if you see this before she disappears again for a month :p

so i've been to auckland and travelled the north islands a fair bit.
am now in brisbane, ipswich :)
have been pampered, nagged at and needless to say, fed by aunty lily and uncle peter, and very much accepted and loved by their little kapoodle candy :)

so i'm holidaying.
dad's coming to melbourne with me this friday :)
travel and holiday somemore.

can't wait for christmas :)
only pity i wont be home to watch any awesome CHC christmas productions and i missed my own kid's performance. but oh well, thank God for christmas :)

JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON! :)

my 21st! :)

2010-10-25T08:44:00.002+08:00

on the 21st of Octorber 2010
guess who strutted into the arms of Natalia Wong!!! :D

MINION!!! :) :) :)
super happy i think i've forgotten how to smile properly already :)
hahahahaha
well i guess i should blog about how i spent my 21st right?

guess what! :D
i spent it studying/going/doing/studying for exams :)
all in that sequence :p

well...
rina and keith came over in the middle of the night with cake :)
super happy i couldnt sleep so called home
slept
woke up
studied
travelled to city for exam
did exam
WENT FOR DINNER!!! :)
studied til 2am :p

okay dinner was AWESOME :)
keith, rina and i went for JAPANESE! :)
cuz i requested for it :)
and it was rina's farewell dinner too.
so japaneseeeee yummy! the most expensive thing we order that night was shitake mushrooms. 3mushrooms for $3.50 so not worth it!! but it was niceeeeeeee!! ohoh, and the unagi too. expensive but niceeeee!! i tink i'll post the photos up on facebook :)

then after the late dinner that started at 830,
stayed over at keith's place with rina cuz it's easier to get to the city for exams from his place. plus it's cheaper too cuz it's zone1 only travel :p so rina and i studied in the tv room :p very unproductively. and i now conclude that i CANNOT study with people :p cuz i ended up talking to rina almost the entire night and made her not able to study when she wanted to. hahaha but it was nice chatting with her and all :)

and an awesome way to celebrate my birthday :)
to spend the entire day surrounded by the small group of closest friends i've got here in melbourne :)
ta-da end of essay and story
i hope i'll get a HD for it! :p

happy birthday to me!

2010-10-21T10:43:00.003+08:00

natalia nutty wong has already had the bestest birthday EVER! :)

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday dear nuttyyyyy,
happy birthday to me! :)

hahahahaha :)
despite the looming exam ahead in the evening....
i've already had the bestest birthday at midnight :)

keith and rina popped by!! :)
although it was meant to be a surprise but due to some unforeseen circumstances, to keep me awake, i was kinda expecting it somehow :p
but nonetheless! :)
they popped by with a cake at my doorstep!! :) :) :)
yay. chocolate cake with a caramel layer and lots and lots of chocolate :) fattening to have a slice in the middle of the night but yummm :)

and that made me happy :)
so happy i couldnt sleep so i called home to make everyone wish me happy birthday even though it still wasnt 12mn yet at home but it was where i am!! :D

i'm...
super-HAPPY-fragalisticexpialadoshus

my 21st :)
a mini celebration with my bestest friends in melb :)

♥

day out with serene! :)

2010-10-13T18:26:00.004+08:00

went out with serene today! :)
was awesome! :)

she's so beautiful now and so demure already :p heh, i like her shoes :p still rem the times when we used to be unglamly digging up the sand pit in our lousy and peeling alpha teeshirts :p

anyways,
glad her first flight was to melbourne!! :)
finally someone from singapore popping over for a visit even though it's but one day :)

took her out to lygon st since she's heard so much about it and her friends said it was a must visit. so yaaaa. brought her to eat GREEK slovaki! :) i cant believe i finished the ENTIRE slovaki myself while she barely ate half and then later just picked out the chicken... ): FAT.

then brought her to san churros!! where she barely touched her 3churros(spanish donuts) and i actually finished my share of 3churros. omg seriously FAT :p with a hot chocolate as well!
HAHA.

but haha, i had a good time despite my exams starting tmr :p
and it was funny :)
it rained today therefore it was colder x) thank goodness she packed a jacket to sleep in else she'll be stuck in the winterish-spring with nothing to keep her warm!! but anyways, the guy at the san churros place maybe he was bored or smth, held a conversation with us while we were ordering :) and when he found out that serene was only here for a day, he actually gave both of us a chocolate each!! :) :) :) hahaha. although it wasnt very nice, but still! :) free chocolate!! :)

hahahaha
and serene popped out a advanced bday prezzie for me.
didnt want to open it til my birthday but i was excited :p haha opened the card on the train on the way home. then when i got home, i opened the prezzie! and guess what i found!!! :)

REIGN
City Harvest Church

:) :) :)

i'm so glad i got to meet serene today :)
and that's my day :)
stardee! :)

i love my twin! :)

be blessed! :)

2010-10-05T08:10:00.000+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS CHEOK AI LIN! :)
celebrating with you down under with books :)

heh.
PHUA JIA ANN is ~~one heck of a lucky~~ a SUPER blessed man!!!

may this love blossom! :)
into bigbig flowers! :)

good walking day :)

2010-09-23T22:47:00.005+08:00

updateeeeeee :)

the journey to and fro from cell group :)

being forward looking, to save myself $2 from validating my bus ticket for a full day, i decided to walk a couple of stops forward so that i could catch a bus at 6o'clock SHARP and still be early/on time for cell group :) so i walked 30mins forwards and did just that :)

left cell group late trying to tie the ends of the AGM to be held next week. tram came late. therefore.....
missed my bus by being TWO minutes late.
next bus was an hour later as it was in the middle of the night already. plus it was the second last bus i missed :p

cant be bother to sit there and wait for an hour juz for a 20mins bus ride to get me home even though i already had a valid ticket for the entire night.
and since knowing that an estimate for me to get home from there by foot should take less than the time i have to sit and wait for the bus....

i walked :)
55mins.

and faster than a bus.
NICE :)

knees sore now :p
hair still damp after a late night shower after settling all that needs to be emailed out etc..

SLEEP :)
it was a good walk after goodness knows how many days/weeks of no exercise due to stupid knee. didnt pant, but could feel my shirt under the jumper getting a little damp. according to rina's theory, i hope the not panting really = burning fats! :D then it shall be a good walk indeed :)

KOKO kiddos! :)

2010-08-30T19:31:00.003+08:00

i kept my word and yiren shall keep his :pi promised i'll blog about this to etch a mark in the world wide web of the promise that yiren has made and will keep! :) that he will hold on to complete his race AND never give up no matter what. JIAYOU! :)

and to my kiddos too.

♥

what a sad angry young child

2010-08-19T06:48:00.003+08:00

it makes me wonder.
how young can a child get nowadays before he/she starts using the F-word..

yesterday at work in the kinder room.
a kid was trying to say the F-word to me ): such a sad sight of an angry young child. and its even sadder to know that he knows it's not a nice word to use, and he knows he shouldnt be saying it, thus he tried to disguise his word that turned out smth like "farffff". i pretended not knowing what he said, and it surprised me, that one of the more "dong shi" girls, came up and told me he's trying to say the F-word to me. i mean. they're but only 4-5years of age and they actually know the F-word?! i still rem the first time i actually heard it was in secondary school, when i was 12/13 years of age. sadder still, the boy's mum was my lecturer last sem and she was rather nice ):

what is happening to our younger generation? ):

maybe it's juz australia.
that people uses the F-word as a punctuation more often than not.
poor kids.

kneekneekneeee

2010-08-07T19:29:00.003+08:00

in addition to my previous posts added post-reflection :)

not sure if anyone actually still reads but for my poor memory's sake, i'm proud of my kiddos who hung on through thick and thin they experienced through the years :) and i'm VERY encouraged by their faithfulness :) though i know there were many times where they really wanted to juz give up, but they hung on to God for dear life. and this i'm very proud of them :) and now that they're deeply and happily planted into his family again somewhere else, i'm very glad they endured! :)

which,
i shall endure.
twisted my knee again :p sadly.
it seems to be getting weaker ): cuz this time round, it wasnt me, it was the ball. erm, well recently, i've started leisurely playing soccer with a couple of friends for the past few saturdays :) and i'm starting to like it as well :) i have to admit i do miss playing sports. alot. i guess it's not enough for me to be doing plain physical activities like swimming, i do miss the organised games part of physical activity, and given the chance to play it again i took precautions.! but anyway, yeah. maybe it was cuz i lifted my leg off the ground. the ball hit my leg by the side and ta-daaaaaa it twisted juz like that. worse thing was that it was the start of the game, so i sat in for the rest of the 2hours and didnt get my dose of exercise ): and my dose of fun/enjoyment ):

sometimes i wish i didnt have to get injured.
and somehow it seems like when things are going right with ministry and stuff, the knee has to get injured. like a sore spot. HRMPH.

if it's you.. go away devil ): making my knee injure isnt gonna deter me away from God's house! andandand, note to self, i will not and will never question God because of it! :)
ENDURE! :)

driven by eternity

2010-08-05T08:02:00.004+08:00

was reading a book which was famous almost a decade ago :p
okay, maybe not a decade ago. happened to realised that keith had the book while he was reading it and borrowed it after he was done with it.

Driven by Eternity
by John Bevere :)

not even half way through the book yet though.
but i guess reading about "faint heart" and her judgement, it caught my attention.

for years i've been reading

[Heb12:1-3]
"...let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, ² looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

always quoting about how our life is a marathon and not a sprint, and how we have to press on, keep on keeping on in whatever we do, through challenges and situations. i mean, yes they are all true.

but i realised that i've always been missing out on (in my opinion) the real reason why we should KOKO, why we should never give up and endure through it all.

just a couple of chapters before that....

[Heb10:36-38]
^"36 For you have need of endurance, so that after you have done the will of God, you may receive the promise:
³⁷ “ For yet a little while,
And He who is coming will come and will not tarry.
³⁸ Now the just shall live by faith;
But if anyone draws back,
My soul has no pleasure in him.” "

the simple truth that God doesnt take pleasure in those who do not endure.

i mean it's not that i'm (i cant find a word for it) and i know the purpose of my being a Christian is not so that i dun have to go to hell and can secure a place for myself in Heaven and let my name not be erased in the Book of Life.

but its the fact that i can actually lose my salvation even if i profess myself to be a Christian but
1. don't live the lifestyle of a Christian
2. let circumstance fall down on me, and because of circumstance, i believe but yet i dun believe?

it's kinda hard to explain especially when i'm not so good at doing analyses and what not. but it scares me that i can say i'm a Christian, but yet, if i dont endure through the sufferings and situations we face even as human beings, i'll spend my entire life for nought.

should i because of the things people say, therefore juz throw in the towel?
should i because of the things people do, therefore say that's it?
should i because of the situations imposed on me, therefore say i'm through with witnessing God's love, therefore can harbour hardness and bitterness?

i've come to reflect about the events that have passed during my 6years of being a Christian. and i really thank God for placing people in my life that never fails to pull me back to my feet to keep me fighting this fight of faith. during that major setback from long ago, i'm still amazed at how kenneth managed to get me from being derailed to being back on track. [thank you kenneth! :)] and i really thank God despite the times that i felt like throwing in the towel and doubt my ability, i somehow conjurred out the ability to not do so. i guess there are times when you should still be wise and know when to let go, that which i've learnt the start of this year, that sometimes it's not throwing in the towel, it's moving forward in progress rather than staying put and being stagnant.

i suddenly feel sad for the people that run the race but fall away after a while without completing the race ):

gentle reminder to self and everyone out there:
ENDURE!

:)

praise God!

2010-07-16T08:19:00.004+08:00

:D
i'm bored.

block break after a friday morning 8am lecture while waiting for 11am to come before we set off for the last day of CCM counter/booth.

guess many things i can go ranting about but instead of ranting, let's start with praising :)
praise God for good weather during the week, even though it was forecasted to rain tuesday onwards, it didnt rain a drop while we were out there a single day as of yet.
praise God that it hasnt been that freezing cold and for the sun that keeps us warm standing in the face of winds.
praise God for the people who may be few that took time off to help out at the booth like gavin, christina, gabriel etc.
praise God for the even fewer that made a choice to make themselves effective during the few hours we've taken out for God.
praise God for the contacts that we managed to get which few it may seem, but i tink is full of potential.
praise God for the lovely friends that we've made during this short period.

and last but not least,
praise God for the wonderful trimester in store for us! :)

KOKO nat!

2010-07-12T06:48:00.001+08:00

oopsydoopsy :p
i've been gone for so long again! i should really consider blogging more but i've never really gotten around to really blogging...

3weeks of holidays has juz passed me by.
it's short duration makes me long for more...

in a sense it has been a fruitful break, but yet in another sense, it wasnt a very good break?

fell sick again that's for one. busying with the children ministry here and the 3-day kids holiday program that happened, together with attending rehearsals after rehearsals for the little skit.. sore throat that didnt recover leads to a lost in voice, then regained it, but came at a cost of big coughs and a constantly blocked nose. ):

didnt do much the rest of the time.
shifted house again. this time it's walking distance to a swimming pool! :D but have yet to go.. come to think of it, i really haven done much.

school's begun again as of today.
excited? dun feel as energetic about it though..
only good thing that came through was good results from last trimester :) PTL! :) was still alright i guess, 2Ds and 2HDs.

shall strive to maintain this trimester.....
despite it being BIOMECHANICS(!!!), and behavioural NEUROSCIENCe....

KOKO nat!

):

2010-06-09T07:14:00.002+08:00

short post ):

exams coming soon
came down with another flu
finding out i didnt do very well for my assignments helps only to motivate me less to study
need to pull up grades.
but how?

):
i wish i did better, but the comments from teachers doesnt tell me how to either..

upon further consideration..

2010-05-31T07:01:00.003+08:00

after posting my last post, i've been thinking about it..
well maybe i dun wanna celebrate my 21st birthday in some big birthday party that most people do anyway. it's gonna be a chore planning for it and preparing for it and cleaning up and all those stuffs :) plus, who am i suppose to invite?!

oh wells,
hence on second thoughts,
i'll be satisfied with a candlelight dinner at some porch-like place..
to top that off, balloons lots and lots of them!
and together with my dearest prince charming...
outdoors will be great so please dun rain! :D

sounds like an unrealistic plan. HAHA
oh wells, back to my kids for today! :)
(and books tonight....)

psych me pleaseeeee! x)

2010-05-25T06:58:00.003+08:00

a social aggregate of mine juz recently celebrated her 21st...
or rather, her friends put together a birthday surprise in celebration of it for her....

*envy*

i wonder how will i celebrate mine.
will deakin be nice and let me end exams before(pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease)? on? or... *fingers crossed* after?

hearing others having their birthday celebrated for them makes me feel happy for them.
yes,yes,yes... i know mine's still farfarfarfarfar away... oh wells x)

on a brighter note...
helping out in the nursery room... i realised that whenever those little walking babies see people walking in from the door, they're very happy.. but whenever they walk out, they cry! HMMM. applying psychology into the setting... could it be because they think that the door eats up all these people? like a blackhole? when people go through it they'll never come back again? and when people come through it it's like the blackhole releases people from it's claws? hahaha x) ororor.. could it be because they saw their parents walking out through the door.. and because they still cannot grasp that some heirarchy of knowing thingy, they wonder where did their parents go after going through that door.. and they keep wondering where their parents are until 5pm when they get picked up.. HMMMM.

HAHA. random.
i tink that's enough psychology for now.. it's not even this year's psych i'm talking about!
GEE!

poem by GH and HJ

2010-05-12T08:17:00.003+08:00

posted on the E290 blog (:
thought i'll "borrow" it on my blog for memory sake! (:
this poem was written as a collaboration PROJECT by genghao and huijie (: by saying project means haha, i'm sure there'll be more right? (: i thank God for your faith and love for Him (: deeply encouraged! (: keep rooting deeper in Him! (:

I will ride on Your wings, and let the strength of your flight bring me through all things
Lifting me up without a worry, for it's for freedom that You set me free
Through the fog we'll fly, through the deserts we'll pass, for I know that Your kingdom will come to last
So let me follow You for all my days, reassured that You'll light the way.

I'll conquer the valleys and I'll scale the mountains, with you I'll be the rightful champion
My sanctuary's found in Your heavenly arms, for it's my only eternal calm
Even when my faith has wavered and I'm fallen from grace, it's Your name I'll always embrace
For You know my every thought and my very soul, in You I'll always grow.

You are the Way, the Truth and the Life, in You my love never subsides
In times of lack, and when I'm deprived, I won't worry 'cause it's You who provides
Use me as Your vessel, and rest assured it'll never be hollow
For Lord, You are the captain of my ship; wherever you steer, I will always follow.

working student!

2010-05-11T12:44:00.003+08:00

oooo my blog died.
haha it's time to revive it! :D

been busy with school and the endless assignment mad-rushes. and not forgetting work too! (: bet i didnt mention it in my hectic busyness, i managed to find work at a daycare centre in my uni (: work's been really fun and so has the kids. but after my first two days of work, i fell sick.

ha.

muz be those kids and their viruses :p
or then again it might juz me my midnight oils burnt the previous two nights for the completion of two of my major assignments that was due :p

but nonetheless,
for the first time in 2years maybe more (or at least since i've been in melby), i came down with a terrible-feeling throat and a blocked nose that resulted in blocked ears. which lasted for almost a week. GEE. got lovingly persuaded into staying home to rest on an originally long sunday planned, and realised that was rest much needed (:

so feeling much better,
back to work. work's been really fun and interesting (:
pay's really good as well though it's juz a bonus for this experience that i'm gaining now (:
for the first time, i changed nappies! :D and the kids are juz so loveable. still remember the first day of work, instead of calming kids down i ended up making them cry even more because i was someone they never seen before :p remembering all those kids names was "yikes" too! kept getting kid's names mixed up and calling the kids wrongly hence not eliciting any response from them :p and then comes the part when twins look so identical you fret at who's who......

but once was this pair of twins, hamish and oscar. they decided to play together IN a hoolahoop :p hamish will lead and oscar will follow wherever hamish walks around the playground.. they got stuck once when both tried to lead in opposite directions before i intervened. and the funny thing was that once hamish walked under the slide's steps, and because the hoolahoop was too big for the gap, they got stuck - hamish under the stairs, oscar outside. hahaha x) it was so funny.

i guess this work experience is juz so rewarding as well (:
despite the desperately learning phase, i love what i'm doing. at least i know there's one kid that remembers my name! (:

into the landscaping business (:

2010-04-06T09:41:00.002+08:00

can you say you've experience in the field of garden landscaping?
to most of you, you cant.

BUT I CAN! :D

HAHAHAHAHAHA :p
thank God for the chance to do gardening (: else there would have been nothing much to do over easter other than eating and sleeping (: but at the cost of much aches and pains, but after 4-day of toiling under the sun, body's kinda used to the lactate already (: it has more of less broken down the lactic acids back into ATP for future muscle use consumption (:

and now,
i officially miss my changkol back in TJ ):
and the time of our fav sandpit digging x) twin, jud, uncle frog, ze, debs! :D

donated blooodddd :p

2010-03-24T06:02:00.004+08:00

[edit]
i decided to put up a photooooo!! :D muahaha (:

woots! (:
for a second time in my life..

I DONATED BLOOD! (:
it's a really interesting experience to have every once in a while (: terrific (: makes you feel good as well, knowing that you're saving lives. moreover, it's good for your body when your body iz forced to regenerate newer and more RBCs! (: i tink :p

so yeah (:
if you've never donated blood before, try it this year! (:
if you're afraid of needles, it's a good way to rid of that fear and at the same time, do smth good! (: tip: juz dun look at the needle and ask the nurse to not count down to when she's gonna poke the needle in (:

AND
if you're donating in singapore, you get to keep that squeeze ball thing that comes in different shapes and sizes that are really cute :p where i got my first santa claus :p

oh,
happy that i lost weight too! (:
so prove you wrong to whom that says that going overseas means gaining weight! (: muaha! :D

2010-03-22T14:00:00.002+08:00

saw this on FB today! (:

A woman's heart should be so close to God that a man should have to chase Him to find her.
-C.S Lewis-

love that quote! (:
let's aim for that ladies! single/attached/married (:

school's reopening! (:

2010-03-03T17:36:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S STARTING NEXT WEEK!!! (: (: (:
kinda excited for it (:
finally gonna be starting school again, gonna be learning things that i wanna learn and hopefully it's gonna be interesting too! but at the same time, means workload's coming in.. time management put to good use... and everything else...

but yet....
at the same time i feel scared ):
it's gonna be yet another first day of school once again.. finding new friends, lab partners and hopefully lecture and tut friends too to accompany me throughout the day in uni.. my current friends have kinda disappeared. not their faults since we're all doing different stuffs this year as well. sigh. nvm, i muz remember my advice to the many others that i gave. be positive and open to new things!! muz heed my own advice, practice what i preach? nahhhh :p

oh,
and did i say? though i feel i kinda failed in my peer mentoring programme.. I'M YET AGAIN THE ONLY ASIAN STUDENT IN MY COURSE!!! i wonder if that's a good thing or a bad... last year there was pearl and hanyi until pearl went back and hanyi disappeared from campus... hmmmm..

you can!

2010-02-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

You can ask the Lord because He will not give you a wrong answer.
You can wait upon the Lord because His timing is always perfect.
You can trust in the Lord because He makes no mistakes.
You can hope in the Lord because He holds your future.
You can rest in the Lord because He is in control of your life.
You can lean upon the Lord because He is completely faithful.

=)
thank you Jesus (:

3months!

2010-02-21T23:58:00.003+08:00

my blog needs to be revived (:
by popular demand of my dear girls, i need to blog more.... that begins the headache about what to blog about.....

i guess i could blog about my 3months in singapore?
(:

it's kinda coming to an end already..
maybe kinda happy that i'm going back soon too.. finally going to start studying and do something productive with my time.. but yet, a little apprehensive on what's to come. in school and in ministry. it's indeed a mystery. but i guess that's for God to know, and for me to trust. definitely need to build more of that.

i know that things will not be the same after being out of touch for like ages.. i still do hope that old hurts and wounds would be put behind and be left untouched for another new (school) year ahead. wonder if that's possible. still a good thing to hope (:

so the past 3months..
i've read 98765321 of nora robert's book (:
met up with a handful of friends!
but still.... not all? yikes :p

went for perankan museum and flyer tours with my personal tour guide serene tay (: seen 0506 over a couple of occasions (: met jazreel for brekkie in mac tm once.. have not met the trackers, nor uncle frog cuz they seem to be busy though i didnt say contact them... hmmm. spent alot of time with my cell group and my kids (: got to know a big bunch of youths from (i forgot their CGno.) (: rekindled life everywhere i went (:

fruitful 3months?
yeah, maybe (:
except for the fact that singapore doesnt hold my textbooks ): hrmph.

JS youtubes (:

2010-01-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

a couple of days ago (:
chanced upon this pair of twins doing covers on youtube (: after clicking around, i realised they composed their own songs (: love those composed songs to be honest (: so here's them! (:

JS : Janice and Sonia? cant rem X)

Monday Morning
by JS

A monday morning I wake up again
and catch the train to work all over again
I see the same old people walking by
Just like the other day I don't see a smile

How do I break free from this
How do I live my life to
show that I am free

I wanna fly over the mountains
I wanna soar over the seas
I wanna glide over the flowers and the trees
I wanna fly without a harness
I wanna run without these shackles on my feet
Oh because I know I'm free

I am not afraid
I am not afraid
I am not afraid to fall because of you

A sunday morning I wake up again
and for some reason it feels like a new day
And as I drive to church I wonder why
On monday mornings why do I feel so dry

I wanna break free from this
I wanna live my life to
show that I am free

Amazed By You
by JS

This is the song I bring to you
Nothing made up no fancy tunes
I'm singing whatever's on my heart

I'm sure you have so much to say
If only I gave you a minute a day
I think I would have more songs for you

Sometimes I wonder I question
Was that your voice
or my imagination
I don't know
I don't know

Still you say you love me
Whenever I doubt and walk away
You follow me
you follow me

I'm amazed by you
I'm amazed by you
I'm amazed by you
and how you love me

So many times my faith grows weak
And so many times
you're the last one i seek
I don't know what you see in me

When I complain that I can't hear
Your voice in my heart
you say you're near
You whisper songs into my ears

So here I am singing a song that I wrote
And here I am playing guitar
that I don't know how to play
but that's okay (right?)

Cuz you are the one
who has sung over me
It's more than just
a-ny old epiphany
So won't you captivate our ears

and this song, was pretty funny :p they wrote it for a friend's bday :p
Funny Friends
by JS

Funny how you have the most to say
To the ones you see like everyday (yeah)
Funny how though when they come and say
Can you sing a song for my birthday (...)

We'll just say
Uh- uh I Uh- uh I
Uh- uh I Love you
I love you ooh ooh

Funny how the ones that care the most
They will grill you till you look like toast (mm mm)
Then you go confront them and you say
Do you think that was the wisest way (mm mm)

They just say
Uh- uh I Uh- uh I
Uh- uh I Love you
I love you ooh ooh

it's finally here! (:

2010-01-17T00:18:00.005+08:00

after our long wait (:
it's FINALLY HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:

breaking news!

so yeah (:
as it says, we've finally found our land in the marketplace, for the marketplace, to penetrate the marketplace (: after years of sowing and praying and believing and confessing, it has definitely finally come to past (:

when pastor kong announced it in service, i was overjoyed to the brink of tears (: i dunno, i guess it was hard for alot of people to believe. hearing time and again that the pastors would mention it but no land yet, but nonetheless, we sow in tears during each arise and build season. and now, God iz good, we'll always reap in joy (:

i guess the comments in the site was a little unfair to them not being in CHC to start with. it's as though they have a right to say what they feel, but yet, they dun get their facts right before they shoot. no point stirring up an argument that's for sure. but i juz dun feel justified(?) if that's even the right word to use.
dun like it when people put our pastors down as dodgy without even knowing/hearing them. and most importantly, since when was it the taxpayers' money that goes into the building. i mean, it's not as though the government iz paying for it. oh, and it juz isnt right to assume that we're only into building buildings and not helping the needy and the poor. i mean, behind the scenes not everything iz published like a news like this. it's juz wrong.

oh, and we were taught that God delights in the prosperity of His servants. humble but poor, how can you make a difference and stand out in society as a church mouse? even if it's brainwashing tactics that were used, even ordinary logic tells us that well-to-do people are considered more influential. life tells us that the most humble people usually tend to be of the higher income lot, while the proudest are those trying to get there but arent there. however, being influential doesnt mean you have to be super rich - juz well-to-do. living from hand to mouth wont make others turn their heads. face it.
i guess i've said my piece (:
for the time being, i'm nursing a slightly hoarse voice from all that excited screaming we had as a cell group after service (:

WOW.

too bad when pastor kong announces where exactly our new church building will be, i would have flown back to down under already. upsetting. but i guess, i'll still find out (:

the blog revival post

2010-01-15T23:50:00.003+08:00

my blog died.
hahahahaha
bleh

wazzup recently? nothing much :p
trying to meet more people during the week nowadays (:
more commitments with church stuffs as well maybe x)

oh.
and i'm trying to exercise aka cycle and swim more as well (: if possible, maybe 3times a week activity in the afternoon x) though hmmm. singapore gets kinda rainy in the afternoon. but yet, my sunblock doesnt seem to prove it's worth by not making me get any darker than i already am. HMMM.

talking bout rain,
i got drenched last week as well :p smarty pants me decided to cycle to toapayoh. and got stranded at toapayoh cuz it rained Siamese and Labradors when i reached. wouldnt stop so i braved the rain home :p interesting experience though. reaches the point where it doesnt bother you if you cycle into huge puddles/pools of water because you're already wet anyway :p

so i should say
interesting week it has been.
cant wait for february to come.

oh.
and january, the month of birthdays, and so happens that it's 21st birthdays this year.. i'm turning 21 this year! (: wakaka (:

all about blood pressures! x)

2010-01-06T21:03:00.003+08:00

dad measured his blood pressure after dinner.
outta curiosity, i measured mine too :p
lo-and-behold! LOW BLOOD PRESSURE!

95/65
when the normal iz suppose to be 120/80

hahaha
how nice. when the whole family iz panicking about high blood pressure running the family.. here i am, having low blood pressure and there's no cure for it!! i should juz eat more fatty food :p HAHAHA, but dr.naddie says young females iz normal to have low bp. hmmm. i wonder why.

maybe it's cuz i'm feeling all heavy headed and woozy :p
sleep soon! (:

nothing iz impossible

2010-01-04T00:04:00.004+08:00

my current fav song? (:
this song never fails to fill my faith tank (:
and this year 2010, i pray and hope that this year forth will not be limited by the situations we see and the mountains we feel coming against us. nothing iz impossible. and only if you believe. - the key to anything or any dream, iz in Christ alone. and i'm believing in it.

Nothing Is Impossible
by PlanetShakers

I'm not gonna live by what i see
I'm not gonna live by what i feel

Deep down i know that you're here with me
I know that you can do anything

Through You
I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible

Through You
Blind eyes are opened
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible

I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe in You

merry christmas!

2009-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL :p

christmas iz coming! :D

2009-12-20T23:01:00.002+08:00

my blog died.
haha.
for a lack of knowing what to blog.

CHRISTMAS IZ COMING! =)
cant wait (:

i'm looking forward to watching the christmas production (:
hopefully unlike this week's candlelight service, it will feel special again (:

the land of sushi

2009-12-11T19:05:00.003+08:00

:D
as requested by LUI. bleh
the land of sushiiiiiiiii.
which didnt have that much sushi :p

food-wise
it was rice everyday for all three meals if it was provided.
sashimi was only on one night which we had to order and pay extra. for the first time i tried sashimi of other fishes beside salmon. still tink salmon tastes best.

weather-wise
it rained when we were at disneylandddddd ):
though it snowed when we were at mt. fuji (: well not really snow. it iced the night before, and a few flakes fell? i made a mini snowman x) which totally doesnt look like a snowman
and it was sunny again thereafter when there wasnt much interesting things to do except sightsee..

let's see
what else did i do.....

shopped everyday (til i'm kinda sick and literally tired of shopping)
disneylanded (but no, i didnt see pluto so no photos with him ):)
visited quite a couple of temples (some scenic some not at all)
hot springed
mt. fujied
bullet trained (which looks like a platypus now)
watched a kimono fashion show (some are actually really nice! but erm, layers to them show royalty and wealth = look like fat rows of cloth)
universal studioed

the things i bought..
are only things that are really cute x)
i muz say, japan's definitely good at their packaging and cute stuffs.
plus, i like walking into shops there. the sales people dun stare at you as you browse nor come up to you and make you feel self conscious (: they juz do their own stuff and smile. makes window shopping so much more pleasant x)

but one good thing =)
on the aeroplane, i finally watched music and lyrics <3

way back into love has been playing on repeat for the past two days (:

and i guess this other song's kinda nice too (:

messy updates! :D

2009-12-01T12:37:00.004+08:00

wow.
highlights of the past few days (:

1. i finally saw baby jordan up close and personallll!!! x)
he's so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee! x) got to play with him for a while in the nursery before service on sunday.. serena said that was the first time he could stand for a longer period of time without support x) yipee! haha x) and he couldnt stop drooling cuz he was teething x) I SAW HIS SPROUTING TEETH!! =)
somehow i still cant overcome the obstacle that i might break those soft and moulding bones of babies ): sads, i dun dare to carry them even though they look so carryable and cuddly ):
GRR. i'll carry you soon one day jordan! x) if you let me that iz :p

2. saturday was the second time in my 20year life that i've experience such horrendous side effects ever. detest! what a love-hate relationship that iz. eeks ):
but i got to see ion orchard for the first time. huge and like a maze. juz searching for the toilet was a chore. geex.

3. talking about love-hate relationships,
sunday night gave me the worse headache that i've experienced of yet. seriously head splitting/throbbing/hair tearing headache ): tried to not take any meds to make it go away but apparently it failed and worsened during the night ): got home after granny's place and took a bottle of xingjunwan and den didnt get better, took two panadols(i usually only take 1) and tried to sleep. couldnt sleep until after my mum helped me massage my poor head ):

4. but i guess one good thing about sunday was service at JW (:
pastor kong prayed for the cell group leaders. though i didnt go up for prayer, i felt as though i was really refreshed and restored like what pastor kong said. a place where overseas members come back home, be refreshed and restored for another year forward =) i finally felt a touch from God (:
somehow i tink i might have found a key to changing Deakin? only through Jesus, nothing iz impossible (: only if you believe (:
and somehow i tink i might have found out what went wrong with them. or rather, where i went wrong with handling them. caleb gave away that prize that he fought for for years juz liddat, why didnt i? izzit too late now?

5. monday, we had our cell group outing =)
around the same time last year, we went to sentosa as well, and apparently that was the last time i've been to sentosa and so has it been a few of theirs too! x)
thank God for the weather =) it kinda drizzled bits here and bits there, but none strong enough to chase us away x) and soon enough, the sun came out and a couple of the kids got tanned/burnt :p i juz got slightly darker that's all :p
as for the activities :D ailin, tayxi and i kinda planned for games x)
photohunt
was good seeing them pluck up courage to ask passerby hunks/babes for photos! :D
treasure(yupi gummy) hunt
hiding gummys were more fun :p
sabotage bottle game :p
HAHA, required lotsa skills and in the end jeremy and christon found the secret of science :p
and 2-by-2 soccer :p
would have been the most fun IF i brought rafia strings. GRR. the black thrash bag ripped juz like that. but i muz say, the girls definitely has the better teamwork compared to the guys x)
and i have to say, i'm violent :p after splitting into solo soccer, my first 3 kicks hit 3 different people >.<

last but not least.
winter shopping iz a headache.
japan here i come..
i wish naddie could come too.
i'll be missing youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

gee,
my post iz in a mess :p

cycledition

2009-11-25T21:20:00.002+08:00

i miss melby.
many things and melby's weather included. it's crazy. i've been perspiring so much here i'm starting to wonder where does all that water come from x) under the sun iz understandable, but having dinner?! sitting at my desk?! yikes x) i love my showers now :p

anyways, in all attempts to try to tone up my body(fats to be more exact), i swam and cycled (: happys (: and more cycling and more to come :p
covered longer distances with my dad cycling around to run errands and get things done. rather than taking the bus which would have been the first option if i had to do it myself :p so today, dad and i cycled to AMK den for fun we juz cycled ahead further on to lower pierce and for a drink thereafter via bishan park :p

wanna go swim again tmr (:
but dad says no. cuz viruses catch better in wateR? or smth along that line.. i've been sneezing the whole of today. i wonder why..

which makes me all so sleepy now...
zzz

home sweet home?

2009-11-24T06:32:00.005+08:00

as i'm busy running my fingers over my lappy now, the sun has yet to rise :p

second official day back at home.
havent contacted everyone i know yet, so i suppose some would still tink i'm in melby x) which makes it easier as well :p nahhhhh, i guess i've got more than enough time to not be contacted for my first two weeks here x)

so sunday, came back to find my internet not working ):
suffered for internet withdrawal symptoms of oversleeping and not knowing what to do in the day. which meant i woke up at 1130am missing my swim that i was intending to go for EVERY morning or at least try to :p lunched and unpacked a lil' more, made a dental appt on 10dec, met bk for tea at J8 sakae, came home to help my granny cook (YAY(:), dinnered and decided the internet-less system was too hard to bear. met my mum at tampines and got my new internet. ta-daaaaaaaa! (: and i made her spend 70bucks at NTUC x)

I GOT MY HONEY STARS! (:

i was so bored i finally took out breaking dawn to try to finish it. oh wells. and did i say? the roads here have TRANSFORMED to what seems magically. now it's so far to walk to any busstop ): though it does look prettier.... x)

and i'm up to yet another gloomy day in the sunny island.
good morning x)
it's time to go for my swim. (:

*bloop*

bye melby.

2009-11-21T22:04:00.003+08:00

bleh, haven been blogging much lately.
but because of requests to make some noise on my quiet blog, here's an entry i guess.

not sure whether to be happy or sad to be going back.
leaving melby where i've settled in and made myself comfortable for the past months, i've come to find joy and pleasure in being here. though the past few days have been sweltering hot (even warmer than back in SG and i actually got a tan from it), it's juz different. melby juz has an Xfactor that sg doesnt have?

oh wells,
sunny island (which isnt very sunny now because of the monsoon season), please be nice to me.

dating profile

2009-11-09T21:13:00.008+08:00

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You

hahahaha, took this test from naddie's post link :p
you tink it's true?
maybe?
maybe not?
a little bit here and there?

or iz this juz like any other FB quiz..
haha

i wonder :p

6days in sunny aussie state

2009-11-04T10:40:00.010+08:00

10people
2cars
6days 5nights
3different places of accomodation
123456789hrs of drive
987654321kms of road

countless amt of fun on this mini winery tour (:

first up!
woke up really early for pickup at 650am x)
met up with everyone else at keith's at bout 815 (: and started the drive down to warrnambool (: stopped by the first winery for the trip :D

while keith went to meet his client, we checked into our holiday park cabin (:continued the drive down towards the twelve apostles (:

pitstop at the Port Campbell foreshore for timboon icecream! and this really beautiful scenic lookout (:
after a couple of minutes more drive, the aussie famous twelve apostles along great ocean road (: well apparently a few of them suffered weathering and fell. soon before you know it, it'll be the last apostle no more :p
so instead of going to the london bridge to see the arch that's about to succumb to gravity, we stopped over at loch ard gorge on the way back. it's like a pit hole overlooking the coast (: beautiful. apart from the sand that was cold, it was a pretty sight. they actually played with the waves as well! try running away from the rapid massive inflow as each wave crashes on to the shore (: bryan got his pants all wet :p
headed home for BBQ dinner after that (:

the next day, we were back on the road towards adelaide.
on the way, we drove past these huge wind farms (:
pit stopped at the blue lake.
it's the blue lake because the water turned pure blue only during summer. which now the colour was still changing, so you still can see a little of it dark and other parts blue.
and i tink we spent the rest of the evening visiting wineries? cant rem x) headed home for carbonara dinner (:

next morning, we visited the naracoote limestone caves (:

here's keith hugging the giant marsupial! which is actually the lifesize version of the largest marsupial found (:
then we spotted a snake "zebra" crossing! :D
the scary thing about it was that this snake had no head :p they were both tails at both ends x)
after limestone caves, we went to the wood gallery, and the wool gallery, and parted for a few more wineries and pork roast dinner thereafter (:

the strangest thing ever seen that evening was a massive flock of sheep started running into our caravan park! :D hilarious x) it turned out that they missed a turn :p cameras were too slow to capture it :p but because of the sheeps, we realised there was a penola country show that night. managed to catch fireworks that night.

started driving up towards Moana the next day.
stopped over to make friends with Larry (:
keith was saying that larry was a mistake. he was suppose to be 18feet tall, but something happened and he became 18m tall :D
drove to the Cape Jaffa lighthouse. but it wasnt anything nice to see. so instead, i wandered closer towards the coastline. saw this sunflower looking weed :p i'd say it's a nice shot except that i got the wrong focus. as always >.< anyways, lunchtime!
had authentic fish n chips and some others ordered lobster at this jettish looking place :p but i didnt like them both, they tasted fishy. eeks. before lunch, we camwhored a little. and here's the peeps from the other car (:
continued the drive all the way to Moana, our next cabin accomodation while a couple of others stopped over at another one of the wineries which seemed to have really good wines because of the stash they got :D

upon their return, we headed over to shipwreck coast. but you cant see the shipwreck. probably somewhere deep under or maybe it's juz a death zone for alot of ships :p
had dinner at one of the chinese restaurants are chinatown in adelaide city. dead beat by the time we reached home.

the second last day of the adelaide tour was the worse holiday experience ever. i wont say much about it, but i guess some people juz never grow up. or rather, they juz never mature.? the influence of alcohol iz widely known and educated, but yet juz like smoking, everyone else ignores the health effects of it for whatever reason. juz like the advert: quitting iz hard, not quitting iz worse. count your costs.

so yeah, having been sent off to adelaide city for the day. i decided to find something to buy at adelaide city. and i got my shoes cuz it alligatored on me the day before :D

walked about the city and found out there was nothing much in there. silverballs which was said to be a muz-take. and it so happened that it was a sunday and the rundle street market was open.
bought soft nougats and a seriously loveable thumbelina there. fell in love with it the moment i saw it, bought it. mineeeee. hearts!after the sweltering day under the hot sun of nothing much to do, waited for dinner to be served - at adelaide's WORSE vegetarian restaurant, the StaG (:
so that was the last day (:

before heading home, we visited the strawberry farm (: and picked the most awesome strawberries ever. the first time i've picked strawberries (: juicy sweet strawberries. though not as sweet as sunny ridge, but still yum.
then it was a really long drive back to melbourne. and i tink trying to keep drivers awake seems almost as tiring as driving the long journey itself.

but anyhow.
the mini winery tour to adelaide was enjoyable(:
i tink i prefer wineries better compared to boring city walks (: even though i may not taste wine or have yet to learn the skills to tasting wine, the scenic moments in the wineries can be breathtakingly pleasing to the eyes.
the people at the wineries (:
and the cute stuffs we've come across during the trip (:
the amazing collage of foodbut i tink the best of it all,
the blooms of spring (:
who said singapore was a green city?
maybe for a concrete city singapore iz green..
(:

baking spree!

2009-10-27T05:50:00.005+08:00

natalia wong went on a baking spree.
ever since holidays have begun, she has been busying herself in her kitchen, filling it with aroma of butter steaming out from the oven floating throughout the whole house =)

because her friend was so nice and bought her a whole pineapple for whatever reasons...... pineapple tarts evolved!! check out the unique shaped biscuits! :D they were lovingly made with her carving knife and nimble fingers :p plus the decoration to make it even more enticing to eat :p
and because her birthday juz passed not long ago and she was still bored. she baked her own birthday cake (: since a chocolate icecream cheesecake wasnt possible.. she made a chocolate with orange and brandy cheesecake with a scoop of icekreme from krispy kreme to consume with (:
she promised another friend that she would bake a chocolate mudcake for her because she was erm okay, needed encouragement.. so here's a milo(sorry no cocoa powder) fudge cake! :D
then, in light of her upcoming trip to adelaide which she iz SUPER excited to embark on. plus having heard that others were put in charge of sandwiches for the drive there.. she baked cookies for the drive as well! chocolate and cream cookies! looks like chocolate hamburgers =)
last but not least, trying to appear to seem healthier for once.. honey oatmeal cookies! (: with a choice of plain, with raisins or with chocolate.
ta-da! (:
are you hungry now?
thanks to her friend who made a really good investment by buying her a chocolate box recipe book (: natalia attempts to try most of the recipes in it (: yipee

and guess what?

she did all these all in the attempt to feed the faces of others to join her in her growing and swelling bigger and bigger horizontally by the weeks. :p
eat and be merry! muaha :D

forgiving yourself.

2009-10-23T08:30:00.005+08:00

tuesday,
had an activities packed day out =)
shopping at chaddy in the morning (:
got myself a birthday top, loved it. eh.. i forgot to take a picture of it and this erm funny face photo was the closest you get to seeing the top :p oops x)a lindt chocolate cheesecake! (: yummilicious.my afternoon was spent mysteriously which cannot be disclosed. where i found a wallet and returned it to the bank - my good deed done for my birthday :p
had dinner at wagamama,and followed by dozen slices of cakes at the other cafe place.

watched fame the movie. and i guess what really caught me was something said along this line:

until you can accept your circumstances, you'll never be able to accept yourself and bring your true inner self out.

it's juz like the nooma we're going to be watching tonight:

everyone had wounds. big small shallow deep. we cant figure out why people do things to us, but at the end of the day, we dun wan to let our lives be determined by what other ppl do to us, we juz want to be free from it all.

forgiving isnt forgetting, sometimes it's remembering.

it iz an action. forgiving iz letting go, setting free, giving up on every desire for revenge, but most of all, forgiving iz to actually wish them well. forgiveness isnt about other people, it's about us. when we forgive and set them free, we set ourselves free, letting ourselves off the hook. having to carry all that baggage around is a miserable way to live. as we journey through life, we get hurt and wounded, but the truth stands: God created you to be free.

what does it cost to let it go?
what will it cost you to let go?
what will it cost for you to let yourself off that hook?
perhaps only until you let yourself off the hook, then can you really fully love yourself before anyone else.

so my dear readers,
i have a query.
how do you express love?
do leave a comment on your opinions (:

twenteen

2009-10-21T19:51:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to me! (:
to those who remembered, thanks! <3

sometimes it's through times like these that you really know who goes beyond surface deep. or maybe it's juz cuz i dun tell ppl here in aussie that it's today. but anyways (:

had a fun day baking my own birthday cake today :p
though i didnt have my cake cutting and no, i didnt get to make a wish on the day itself with my cake and candle (i had a mooncake cake first week of oct). but yeah, day still went fine. i hope my chocolate cheesecake turns out okay tmr morning x) shall post a photo when it's done :p

so yeah, called home and went for dinner at docklands! (: it was alright. the steak was much better than the fish and chips. but haha, the cake slice was yum.

i guess this iz it.
i'm twenteen now.
time to grow up? forced to grow up? or will growing up means missing out on being myself?

perhaps.

the lemons of life! :D

2009-10-14T06:47:00.003+08:00

when life serves you lemons, make lemonade

good one :D

post-exams TTDL! :D

2009-10-13T16:49:00.004+08:00

3 down
1 more to go

( :

one more day

cant wait for the holidays to beginnnnnnnn!! x)
let's see what i'm going to do during the holidays..
1. roadtrip to adelaide 29oct-2nov (:
2. be an active farmer on farmvile
3. join cafe world and figure my way around
4. pack my table
5. upload my photos
6. rip that CD case of CDs
7. sort through and organise my songs in my lappy
8. bake cookies, cakes and brownies and more interesting stuffs than that too!
9. watch movies? x)
ohoh!
10. butcher my pineapple :p
11. mend spot! x)

what else.....
12. swimming? :D i do miss being a water baby :p

hmmm.....

sun's note!

2009-10-12T07:00:00.004+08:00

Sun's note

I believe in pursuing dreams.
I believe that every journey you take, you find people who will jump on the bandwagon, and others that will try to kick you down.
I believe that divided opinions do not always equal right and wrong.
I believe in the heart more than the outward.
I believe in love.

she's one really tough cookie.
one that admits her frailties because of the situations she faces and goes through, but yet never veers off track from reaching her destiny that God has for her.
woman of God.
*strive to be like her! <3

citynews

2009-10-11T14:47:00.007+08:00

i juz chanced upon an article in citynews that somehow i feel related to (:

a lobby for love leadership

guess wad.
this was my beginning (:
my turning point close to 5years back (:
one that i dun tink i'll ever forget x)

how about this one from Dr. AR Bernard?

a godly character for leadership

=)
i miss pastor Kong.
and pastor Tan.
and pastor Phil Pringle.
and pastor AR Bernard.
and everyone else.

but i know that the God i know, iz the same no matter who the preacher iz or what the sharing iz about and no matter which part of the Earth it iz (:

1down!

2009-10-07T09:57:00.001+08:00

1 down
3 more to go

(:

holidays are coming really soooooooooooonnnnn (:

babies laughing!

2009-10-02T10:55:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
i'm suppose to be studying but i cant help it!! x)

LOOK AT THEM!!! x)
they loook EXACTLY THE SAME laughing!!!! :D

and this one.
OH MANNNNNN! x) so cute! x) he can laugh until he fall down x)

sigh (:
laughter iz really a good medicine (:
and laughter's meant to be shared! :D
and i realised the time i blog the most iz during exam period. or when i'm suppose to be studying or doing assignments x) GEEX!

hahahahahahhahahahaha
and sometimes, watching videos like these does make you smile even when you dun feel like it. life's simple moments.

baby jordan and psychology!

2009-10-01T10:58:00.005+08:00

psych HPS121 says:
baby jordan iz now undergoing the emotional development stage. building up attachment based on attachment theories (: the separation anxiety of distress when away from his mother.
signs emerge 6-8months from birth.
baby jordan 6mths++ old now.
it says that it will peak from 14-18mths.
so be prepared for even more "vulnerability" when you're not around serena!

and it's normal!
baby jordan iz friendly for the initial 2-3months because infants smile and laugh with ANY competent care giver.

so what does this say..
for baby jordan to develop into a healthy young resilient and competent toddler, baby jordan has to develop the "secure attachment" style. so in other words, baby jordan has to show distress when mummy serena iz not around, and yet be easily soothed when mummy serena comes back (:

other attachment styles would include
- anxious attachment : child gets distressed and yet not easily soothed!
- avoidant attachment : child continually explore room irrespective of parent presence; child does not show signs of distress either
- disorganised and disorientated attachment : child doesnt show affective behaviour to parent

i wish i had the know-hows to developing that secure attachment style. HPS121 only mentioned sensitive and responsive behaviours from parents...
geex, but i wont be taking this unit next year.

oh well! :D
that's all (:
at least baby jordan iz on the right track (: yippee

whatever You're doing + hide

2009-09-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

woots (:
juz got this from leeying's blog x)

click here for the music video!

Whatever You're doing
by Sanctus Real

It’s time for healing time to move on
It’s time to fix what’s been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It’s time to find my way to where I belong
There’s a wave that’s crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there’s peace
It’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see
but I’m giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender…

To whatever You’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there’s peace
It’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see
but I’m giving in to something Heavenly

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I’ve wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You’re up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It’s time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out

dear Lord,
i'm placing my trust in You. i know You will make things happen. i dun have much to offer into Your Hands, but little in the master's hands become much. i wont be able to do this on my own, so Lord, help me. the next two years here where You've placed me, i'll be needing You more than ever. mould me change me, into that something heavenly that You have in mind. mould us and change us all, into that something heavenly that You have in mind for all of Your children-cum-disciples.
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another video i chanced upon on FB.
i tink it was shared by hanning or smth (:

Hide
by Joy Williams

To anyone who hides behind a smile
To anyone who holds their pain inside
To anyone who thinks they're not good enough
To anyone who feels unworthy of love
To anyone who ever closed the door
Closed their eyes and locked themselves away

You don't have to hide
You don't have to hide anymore
You don't have to face this on your own
You don't have to hide anymore

So come out, come out, come out wherever you are
To anyone who's tryin' to cover up their scars
To anyone who's ever made a big mistake
We've all been there, so don't be ashamed
Come out, come out and join the rest of us
You've been alone for way too long

And if you feel like no one understands
Come to the One with scars on His hands
'Cause He knows where you are, where you've been
His scars will heal you if you let Him

i have to say,
the Christian contemporary music scene is really blossoming isnt it (: such hope held within an ordinary soundtrack.
leeying hit the nail on its head

realising these are Christian songs just gives you more faith in God, more faith to carry on regardless of how bleak hope seems right now.

you go girl! :D

post-its!! :D

2009-09-29T18:44:00.010+08:00

it's a POST-IT youtube FRENZYYYY!!! :D

started off with this video naddie shared on FB!
really cute (: i liked the sun x) and i honestly think a creative mind can make smth outta the simplest thing of a post-it x)

den there's this one that's really cute too.

the post-it conversation
post-it proposals sounds cool. but it's gotta be more creative and innovative than MCQs!! :D *challenge!

but i tink this iz the cutest (:
post-it man and ice cream :D

reminds me of jud.
and her post-it craze back in JC.
studying with post-its all over.
post-its iz a good invention (:
love post-its.

back to my studying without post-its x)

sigh

2009-09-28T12:53:00.004+08:00

the nutted nutty nutella..
wonders if she'll EVER and NEVER.
feels really seriously helpless at times.
tried to defy reality and fails miserably at times.
is emofied studying ):

[edit]
or rather,
studying for exams has officially emofied her.

i love what i'm studying!

2009-09-25T21:17:00.003+08:00

wonders.
turning your head to bite the hand that feeds you.
in not so dramatic terms, turning around to bite the person that tries to be nice to you. why would people even wanna try to be nice to you anymore?

psychology says people with mental disorders/depression tends to slip into deeper depression. because they lack the skill to communicate and be mentally healthy and react appropriately to situations. because they become a black hole to themselves, noone else wants to relate to them because they dun have the skill to, offending them as they go about. If we are angry in our responses, others will be reluctant to interact with us. If we bring “baggage” from past bad interactions to new relationships, we may be cynical, distrustful, and guarded in our exchanges with others. If we are positive, happy, and share openly with others, they will be more likely to communicate openly with us.

maybe to any of you in general, that's juz pure stating of common sense.. but i actually do like what i'm studying. in fact, i love what i'm studying. everything is applicable on life. school apart from exams is as though it's leading you on a journey of discovery of self and people around you, a journey of awareness (: i learnt that..
when you've mastered the art of hiding and avoiding your feelings, you usually find it hard to label emotions. Check
when in anxiety, you can decide to reduce anxiety by choosing to behave in a way that is exactly opposite to one's true feelings (reaction formation). hmm

you know, i've been thinking.
every response we make is actually a defense mechanism we adopt. maybe that's where Freudian went wrong. we'll always face intrapsychic conflict between the id, ego and superego. i mean, the id and ego will ALWAYS be contradicting itself.. so yeah. defense mechanism. it's pretty cool when you look at them and go "mmm, this sounds familiar.." x)

stardee (:
oh, and the units this year are so interesting. like the one for that health behaviour one, it has like 987654321 tips on bettering the different areas and aspects of health. should adopt some to try x) who says year1's boring x)

fancy free + falling for you! (:

2009-09-21T15:55:00.006+08:00

wonder if ailin's tag was an exclamation of having more videos uploaded, or was it a request for more videos to be up... HMMM.

but anyway! (:
in conjuction of my mini sun craze, little did i know few days back Sun released her new single! (: and seeing the commotion on FB, i saw her LIVE webcast! (: but anyways, here's the video! (: it's REALLY COOL (:

and i..
i feel so beautiful (love me)
can no one tell me no (i'm fancy free)
my life's a circus show (love me)
no matter where i go (i'm fancy freee)

another video i saw (:
really nice song (:

that's the MV, but i saw an alternative version! (: couldnt embed it.. so yeah (:

Fallin' For You
by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh

borrowed phone!

2009-09-20T12:44:00.003+08:00

after months of struggling with a lousy phone whose buttons 7,8 and 9 doesnt work.. keith juz lent me a phone that now works and iz haha 987654321 times better than my own.. hmmm. thank God (:

lalala (:
you never know how important buttons like 7,8 and 9 are until you lose that function.. now i can text quickly instead of taking 30mins to compose a text message with "insert contact details > name > find alphabet" x) it was quite an experience though.

[reminder to self to buy phone when back]

anyways,
2weeks to exams.
TA! =)

sunnnnnnnn!! (:

2009-09-15T21:51:00.004+08:00

MORE VIDEOS FROM SUN! (:

单纯 by 何耀珊
i like this one cuz it's erm catchy and cute and nice and jumpy and lively? hmmm x)

做你的公主 by 何耀珊 specially for you (:
或許你沒看出來　周圍的人都在猜
有種感覺正在我們之間展開

喜歡你偶爾作怪　不經意留露的壞
其實體貼實在　孩子氣的胸懷

Pre-Chorus
曾經有過的戀愛　彷彿一片空白
直到遇見你我才真的存在

Chorus
我只想做你的公主　擁有那平凡的幸福
華麗的珍珠　不如眼底的專注
對我深深呵護　我想我是你的公主
終結這多年的追逐
當你抱著我　地球也暫停腳步
我剎那間清楚　你是我的幸福

喜歡你偶爾作怪　不經意留露的壞
其實體貼實在　孩子氣的胸懷

沉潛太久的孤獨　這一刻獲得救贖
我忽然好想哭　感激你這一路
陪我笑　陪著我辛苦
無悔的付出

我只想做你的公主

i'm still really tempted to go find her albums and collect them.. english and chinese alike. but naddie already has a couple of them which i dunno which few. oh well! shall put them into my lappy if i rem to when i get back x)

fan wei qi (:

2009-09-15T09:03:00.014+08:00

there used to be a period of time longlonglong while ago i used to play her CD on repeat (: and i tink i might juz sparked it off again! x)

是非題 by 范瑋琪
每段故事　都有一篇劇情
每段愛情　都像動人旋律
一顆真心　卻只向著你前進　也許愛越單純越著迷

你是窗外　另外一片風景
在你眼裡　我是什麼關係
你的呼吸　存在我的愛情裡　何時能誠實面對自己

Chorus:
我們從不開口那個原因
那一句　我愛你　永遠像少了勇氣
別人都說我和你之間的關係
沒有人相信　只有關心
我們從不證實那個問題
那一些是非題　總讓人傷透腦筋
我會期待愛盛開那一個黎明
一定會有　美麗的愛情

and last but not least!
i name this her most popular hit (:

too bad youtube only has mostly ktv versions. oh well! fanfan (: and no, i dun look like her! not even near! funny how fiona keeps saying so! in my dreams yeah? x)

OH.
and if you're wondering wazzup with chinese and me? it's juz that i've been listening to this one song the past few days (:
不凋零的花 by 何耀珊

<3
her video itself iz touching. that's sun and the humnaitarian works that she's been doing even while she's pursuing her career. i cant find the lyrics! but listen to it if you can! x) songs that bring much hope <3

the spine.

2009-09-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

in human anatomy, the vertebrae column (spine or backbone) comprises of 24 vertebrae.

the major functions of the vertebral column are:
1) protection of the spinal cord
2) providing stiffening for the body and attachment for the pectoral and pelvic girdle and many other muscles.
3) providing motion for the human skeleton
4) transmitting body weight in walking and standing.

the development of the curvatures occurs as the supporting functions of the vertebral column in man—holding up the trunk, keeping the head erect, serving as an anchor for the extremities—are developed.

the spine plays a major role.
it forms the basic anatomical position of the axial skeleton to which everything else originates from. it makes the bulk of the body. any change in the axial skeleton will result in changes elsewhere be it bony landmarks or muscle attachments, resulting in the development of problems somewhere else. it's like a chain. a chain of reactions.

one needs to have a spine.
only then can he be able to hold his head up and have a platform for his body to function and do other stuffs.

GHN prayer

2009-09-09T11:27:00.005+08:00

Dear Beloved of God,
Because of Christ's Love, I pray for peace. Peace that passes all understanding. Peace that fills every corner of your home, ever corner of your heart, every corner of your life. I pray for comfort. Comfort that comes through the assurance of God’s great love for you. No matter what, no matter when, no matter why. No matter what you have done or will do, His love will always be there.

A love so powerful that He gave up his heavenly rights and position of power to become utterly vulnerable and totally dependent so that He would be able to say without a doubt that he understands fully what it means to not be able to meet all his needs through his own works.
I pray for the gift of earthly hands, feet and voices that bring tangible evidence to you of that great Love in practical ways.
I pray for the grace for you to see your world through Christ’s eyes, so you can see the gifts he pours out daily as a celebration of His great love for you. May you know Him as...the God who sings over you and with you in Joy. The God who rejoices over you and with you. The God whose mountains and hills break forth before you into singing; and all the trees of His fields clap their hands. The God who walks beside you, delighting with you as He directs your every step.

May you know Him as.. The God who compassionately comforts you as a Father in all your troubles. The God who strengthens your inner man by His Spirit that is always with you. The God who is your strength, your refuge and a very evident and present help. The God who is your shield and protection when you are under attack. The ever present God who is eternally your peace.

God Bless You Richly

In His Love
Ps Stephen & Angela Goh

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a prayer from global harvest that i felt was in season for someone. i wonder if she'll read this, but i guess, prayer works in realms that we cannot see.

more stuff from GHN

Care for those around you. Look past your differences. Their dreams are no less than yours, their choices no more easily made. And give, give in any way you can, of whatever you posses. To give is to love. To withhold is to wither. Care less for your harvest than for how it is shared and your life will have meaning and your heart will have peace.

juz a suddenly thought.
i figured the way to go about this issue would be to constantly bless her. to give is to love. if i can love her and not stay neutral towards her, it opens us up for greater meaning and peace. one more thing added to my prayer list (:

who wins?

2009-09-06T18:52:00.007+08:00

after a flood of posts last tuesday..
i ran outta things to say x)
but seeing that a week has almost past since i last posted, here's smth for you to tink about and erm haha enlighten me if you can x)

well i was thinking about it.
let's go through this hypothetically (:
person A and person B are both Christians. say they're both actively serving God and loves God. now, A and B are tangled in a sticky situation against each other. and in the situation, they both start claiming God's promise that if God iz with them, who can be against them; and that the Holy Spirit iz with them to help them. BUT, problem iz God being constant in both A and B. and yet, A and B are against each other. who wins? who will God side?

does it go to the one who's stronger in faith?
or the one who wants it more? and fights for it more?
or iz the coin tossed and done according to chance?

so to the other, God did not show Himself true to him? but which God iz faithful all the time.. so the only person to fault iz the person himself? so they didnt ask enough and didnt fight for it enough? that's what i'm leaning towards now though.. hmmm.

food for thought.
if you're wondering why i suddenly thought of this, i suddenly outta the blue remembered an incident back in sec4 badminton. juz a few matches prior to my knee injury. and i rem vividly it was a match against PL x) we were almost neck to neck. and PL cheered that girl on with "the Lord's with you!". but.. the Lord's with me too! i wonder who got the win in the end...
i lost that time, but this time i will ask and fight to win.
oh, one more thing.
smth i found on FB again. this was quite some time ago i tink x) forgot from where (:

Happiness resides not in posessions and not in gold; the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul.

opinion or truth?

2009-09-01T20:45:00.008+08:00

touchy issues.
so many questions but yet..
noone to ask.
noone to give me the answers.

who can i direct my question to for a honest answer?
who can i even talk to?
who will even hear me out?

mind's in a swirl of thoughts.
to tink positively or negatively?
izzit juz my opinion or truth?
stepping stone or stumbling block?

mind over matter.
i hope whatever thought i'm sticking to believing now and forever iz not juz the positive way out.. iz not juz my opinion.. but encompasses the truth and fact in it.
can anyone reassure me?
~~please?~~ thanks ailin (:

nonsense

2009-09-01T08:01:00.005+08:00

i dunno what to blog but i juz felt like blogging. hmmm x)
suppose to be doing my lab report now.. but.. hmmm

for the lack of something solid to blog about..
you juz wasted a few seconds of your life reading nothing in particular :p

okay, let's not make it a waste for you for you since you're such a nice and wonderful reader for even visiting this random nonsensical blog.
latest update?
i've decided to be a true tourist down under.
hence, flight back has been postponed (:

it's worth it

2009-08-30T14:39:00.005+08:00

i've counted my costs.
weighed my options.
and i know it's worth it.

[edit]
i juz came across this 8secs ago!! and counting! x)

Some times its not easy... but its worth it in the end =)

would i consider last week a roller coaster week? maybe.

shifted into the new place. it's colder and i'm catching a cold soon i tink.
havent been having good sleep for the past week. waking up in wee hours of the night for no particular reason, and waking up earlier in the morning. broken sleep iz still not as good as a whole night straight through sleep til the morning. my health behaviour change iz being compromised!! haha x) oh well. but i guess it's worth it. better than staying under totally unliveable conditions.

went jogging finally on thursday morning after a longlonglong while. and age iz catching up on me i tink. i tink my right leg's muscle iz imbalancely toned. so it's straining at my knee and it doesnt really feel all that good. i'll need to change sport soon. like seriously soon.

andandand,
i'm whaling :D
GEEX.[sorry i couldnt resist it. haha whaleeeeeeee!!!]

i came across smth else too!! no link but oh well. worth quoting x)

Leadership is not a game. Leadership is not about fame. Leadership is a Name --- Jesus Christ.

no other name but the name of Jesusssss (:

cherished week (:

2009-08-23T06:08:00.005+08:00

day of matters of all sorts getting resolved (:

a dramatic week stands behind of me.
an adventure filled future stands ahead of me (:

major update for the week: i've moved out! AGAIN! :D
do i honestly look like some ahlian or does keith look like some mafia that we have some sorta gang outside?! it's amazingly ridiculous what people would do and say in the name of money. God isnt against you having money, but God iz against money having you. and i tink God will be really angry at that money-minded bloodsucker of a landlord. that's if he knows God that iz. so what if the china boy has lots of contacts and having the assurance of a fully rented house. it's still not right to unfairly treat current(now ex) tenants.

i guess now that the event iz over, so will the accusations and backstabbings. come to tink about it, i tink i wasted my energy and time to even bother to stoop low to fight against them. simply because the landlord doesnt even seem to bother. so long the house brings money to him, he's contented. 17 Sunhill Av: BE GONE!

unhappy things are officially over finally.
but! happy things are still coming my way that's for sure! (:

the past week has been a really precious and treasured week. a week that was cherish for fear of things going awry. but knowing that things wont, i'm absolutely positively sure that an interesting future awaits (: i shall eat back my words from a previous post: everything will never be the same again (:

i've got lots to learn (:
teach me. to love.
guide me. through life's challenges.
lead me. deeper in Christ.

[Romans 8:28]
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called accordingly to His purpose.

we can be victorious with Christ! <3
we are going to be victorious in Christ (:

building that resilient marriage

2009-08-19T11:58:00.006+08:00

interesting article (from naddie as usual!! :D)
http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1914321,00.html

There are two key predictors of a resilient relationship, experts say: mutual support and a willingness to sacrifice.

Gottman says he could predict which couples would blossom under stress: those in whom, years before, he had observed better communication and more mutual support. "Even at the time of the wedding, the men were more respectful of their wives, prouder of them," he says.

will i become someone my husband can be proud of? i tink i need to work on that (: i shall start now cuz i tink i've got a longlonglong way to go! x)

Beyond respect and pride — and even love — it may be the willingness to sacrifice that leads to a lasting marriage, according to researchers.

proves the first point! apparently researches have been done and scientific studies are usually erm most reliable? iz it? x) i tink so!

Studies at the University of Denver, and colleagues found that the willingness to forgo personal interests and put a partner's needs ahead of one's own was directly linked to a long-lasting, happy marriage — provided that such sacrifices weren't damaging or one-directional.

terms and conditions! (: mental note.

"You've got to know that you actually do better if you hang in there."

what doesnt kill you makes you stronger (: roughing it together i tink iz the fun part of a marriage, knowing that you're going through storms not on your own because you have your spouse with you. and solely because you know that with him/her, it's better than doing it yourself (: and because you know that going through it together breeds itself a stronger bond on its own (:

afternoon at the wineries! (:

2009-08-17T04:16:00.008+08:00

woots! (:
melbourne so rocks socks (:
saturday keith, doreen, lozie, jisun and clairer headed out for yumcha lunchhhh!! (: yumyumyumcha! :D finally had my charsiewpau x)

after yumyumyumcha, we met up with bryan, jessie, timmy and some other friend(whom we spent an afternoon together but yet we still dunno his name! HMMM). so anyways, we headed over to wineries at yarra valleyy!! (: and of cuz, keith drove all the girls in his car :p privileged person :D

so yupp (: wine tasting! x)
natalia attempted to learn a skill or two from master keith but i tink she failed :p let's juz say the wine smells like wine and tastes like wine :p blehhhh, nah x) there were a few that were really nice though! (: to be honest, i could smell and taste that it's different, juz that apparently my imagination isnt good enough to put a finger to what the difference iz :p

there's smth about seeing the colour of the winee.. x)
lozie looks like she's enjoying herself (:
but yeah, while the guys and lozie were geniunely interested in tasting wine...
i realised i like sunny scenery shots :p glistening glimmering!! (:
winery A. yarra yering?
winery B. yering station?
and so yeah,
while the rest of us girl kinda juz took sips or two of the nicer tasting and not so strong wine.. we spent most of the time taking pictures! x)

sorry, the sun was too bright x) and i forgot my sunnies! x) but jisun stuck out her tongue, so it doesnt look that bad :p
jisun, lozie, jessie and clairer against the pretty background structure which maybe was suppose to be a shelter without cover? HMM x)
i like the special effects the sun has on our face :p
andandand, haha it was definitely a fun day out with clarier! :D the first time she's outta moses' strongholdssssss. blah! :p
lozie! (: and i have bad camera aiming skills seriously x) cannot self portrait. nvm, capturing scenery behind iz good too! :D though i could have gotten better a angle :p the COOL korean girl JISUN! (: she looks really cool here!! :D
keith! (: this is definitely not a forced smile! :p genuinely happy (:
oh well!
i had myself a really fun weekend! (:
now it's back to reality. of school work and studying :p

out of the blue, it suddenly feels like there's someone trying to monitor my every speech and action..
honestly, i tink it's freakily scary.
but i guess it's worth it (:
even if it's juz for this short while.

not counting down.

2009-08-12T15:06:00.007+08:00

THE COUNTDOWN TIMER IZ GONEEeEeEeEEeE.

i'm not counting down.
i'm looking forward to being back at home, to where my family and precious kiddos are, to where i grew up, to where i'm familiar with things around me. (though mum says there's big major changes in the roads outside my house which will definitely take me aback and reel in horror)

but yet, i'm not looking forward to leaving Melbourne, to where i've got myself accustomed to for the past months, to where i've decided to place a sense of belonging in.. solely because i know when i leave, nothing will ever be the same again. nothing will ever be the same again. it wont even be a hope that i can get back to where i left off.
so anyways,
as part of my school "project". i've said i'm going to post it so i better do so juz in case someone scouts and realised that i used a false strategy and faked results: i've got an announcement to make..
*ahem*
I AM TRYING TO IMPLEMENT A HEALTH BEHAVIOUR CHANGE OF TRYING TO SLEEP EARLIER. PLEASE HELP ME TO ACHIEVE MY GOAL OF SLEEPING AT 12MIDNIGHT OR LATEST 1AM. MUCH APPRECIATED.

there, i said it!
let's see how things go from here...
*fingers crossed!

only You.

2009-08-11T21:35:00.006+08:00

after three gigantic soft tissue two consecutive nights and one random afternoon.
i've decided i'm mel-ing no more.

away with you negativity.
come back to me positivity.

today i feel that i've gotten the essence of what "God iz only what i need" iz.
God alone and alone is enough for me. He is the only one i'll ever need. noone else can take His place in me, in my heart. noone else can fill that void inside of me but Him.
His Grace overflows.
His Joy overflows.
His Hope overflows.
His Love overflows.

His Love draws me in.
His Love embraces me.
and most of all, His Love makes me whole.
<3

[edit]
OHOH!
and did i say? x)
i baked a mountain of cookies yesterday! (:
baking does make me happy. even better if it turns out really yummy (: even better if it brings smiles to the faces of others <3

not anymore.

2009-08-10T20:57:00.018+08:00

dun wish dun start wishing indeed only wounds the heart
a song shared by someone specially to cheer me up (: thanks!

Awake
By Josh Groban and Idina Mendzel

A beautiful and blinding morning
The world outside begins to breathe
See clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me

And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other

So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today

If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same

And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other

So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today

We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here, right now, with me
All my fears just fall away, when you are all I see

We can't stay this way forever
But I can have you here today

And I will remember
Oh, I will remember
Remember all the love we share today

i'll juz treasure what i have right this moment. the deep and close friendships forged.
because i know i wont have it ever again and never again.
i dun want it. i cant want it, not anymore.
it feels as though having beared my soul out, it feels as though i've been ripped apart. even though i know i didnt and cant give it my all ever because i dun know how, it still hurts. really bad. having to let go of what seemed to be forever. having to say goodbye to those dreams and good times. being caught in the middle, or trying to start smth afresh. i dun know if i will ever meet people like you both ever in future. it hurts me to know that it's goodbye to what i used to know and juz got to know during these short few months. i wish i had more time. give us more time to be this way. so that we can stay like this forever. that nothing will change. i cant hold on to both. i dun wan to let go of any, but i have to let go of both. it honestly does feel like 2 sharp blades juz stabbing in. it really does.
i'm sorry i broke my promise. i mel-ed. big time.

what would Jesus do.?

2009-08-04T10:32:00.008+08:00

what do you do when the first voice you hear is the one you wished to never have to hear to start your day. what do you know when things decide to come up against you. what do you do when what you've decided to suppress all these and not let affect you begins to crumble when someone else decides to turn against you. can you juz turn and walk away and not be bothered at all? can you? what would you do?

what would Jesus do.?

when Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss..
Jesus did not flare up.
[something i would have done if i hadnt reacted the way i did]
Jesus handed Himself over without a fight.
[i dun tink i did that - but i did pick a smaller issue to retaliate.. which i still regret. because Jesus said all who take by the sword will perish by the sword ):]
Jesus healed that guy who got his ear cut off.
[can i bless those who hate me?]
Jesus even taught a lesson through that.

i need to learn to handle things more maturely.
independence comes with a price.
dun you wish you arent forced to grow up so fast at times? dun you wish that sometimes you can be yourself and not worry about anyone complaining about who you are?

it's a compromise.
one that you can only give and never take.
shared housing: God, before i moved in, i prayed that You help me to use me to impact them. i guess i didnt pray hard and fervently and consistently enough for that matter. i cant turn back time, but can i start again? divine order. i trust You are in control nonetheless.

divine order

2009-08-03T21:14:00.006+08:00

not sure when you'll read this but i'm sure you'll read this nonetheless.
i'm not sure what made me say what i said earlier today. extra information not needed to be known?

but anyhow i always thought and believed this hand that life has dealt me has made me mature faster than what normally would. and i still believe so. that in it all, it's a blessing in disguise. and that knowing that God iz still in control. i'm still holding on to that slim shimmer of hope, that God can turn things around the day they come to know Jesus. and that God will always and always be true to who He iz.

juz like another global harvest message said:

I trust in divine order, knowing all is coming together for greater good.

A quilter cuts and sorts dozens, or even hundreds, of shapes of fabric before creating a quilt. If I were to look at all the loose pieces, they might not seem to have a pattern or purpose. But after they have been sewn together, I can see a colorful design appear as a beautiful, durable quilt.

I may not always see the coming-together of the pieces of my life at a time when much is happening. Yet I trust that divine order is always present. Spirit is at work in the details of life.

As independent as activities and surroundings may seem to be of one another, they blend together in an intricate pattern. And even when I do not see evidence of good taking shape and emerging, I trust that it is there. Divine order is present in my circumstances, and all is coming together for good.

and i'm starting to tink i know why God made me fat :p
extra padding so that i wont hurt nor feel that much pain when i fall. considering the fact that He sorta made me that teeeny weeeeny bit clumsier than others :p

quotes

2009-08-01T14:59:00.011+08:00

realised i haven been posting much.
some quotes from juz one person on FB. apparently i cant really recall how i know this person. but i have half a mind to follow this person's profile. he's the creator of that global harvest group: (Pst?) Stephen E Goh

The Christian is a person who makes it easy for others to believe in God.

Because it juz occured to me that our main role of repentance iz for God's kingdom. [Ps51:12-13]

Love Is a Reality
Love is not an emotion. Love is not a feeling. Love is an action. You can have all the right feelings, but without doing anything to express them, what good do they do? Love is more than sympathy. Love is doing what it takes to help people.

juz friday, i attended a lecture and the lecturer asked us to define what love iz to us. i said love iz God, but in fact. love iz a verb. it's an action. an action of giving, one of sacrifice, of total embrace (:

These things have I spoken· unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.( John 15:11)

Your joy is full when you are helping or serving others. Your joy is full when you are giving. But when you are all wrapped up in yourself, you lose your joy. Forget about yourself, start loving other people, and your joy will be full.

and because love iz a verb. if we love people, and help and serve them, only then will we truly experience that fullness of joy that God intended for us to experience.

(this last one iz a little hard to grapple with)

Immature love says I love you because I need you. Mature love says I need you because I love you.

and at the end of the day.
can you say you've loved maturely?
almost like a difference between physical and emotional love.

and i still wonder.
iz it really that hard for the world to understand that even the top are human beings too? people like you and i? who needs friends, needs support without having to hide? stop being paparazzis. i officially understand how those poor celebrities feel now. having your private life open in the public, that it's no longer private. and every action has some sorta reaction big or small. but today in church, i learnt that if we follow the path God gives, choose to seek the grace and heart of God, the problems will be resolved and dealt with in its own time. - i'm claiming that.
[edit]
but actually, when i come to tink about it. i guess there's always a right time and when's not. like a time to be serious and a time to be yourself. not that being serious isnt yourself. i guess it all depends on the circumstances and situation. PLUS. celebrities are not good examples to liken either. because for 1, celebrities never come across to me to know what they're honestly doing most of the time. 2, celebrities are a little pampered? and 3. paparazzis are but juz earning their living. so yupp (: i'm not afraid and there's no need to hide anything whatsoever. because i know i only need to fear Him and only Him. (: izzit really that hard to have a good friend of the opposite gender and not be misunderstood?
ISSUE RESOLVED (:
thanks BFF (:
solution: time.

signs (:

2009-07-28T07:28:00.004+08:00

chanced upon this video on boonie's FB profile (:
now i'm glad i popped by her profile that led me to this video. 12mins but definitely worth the watch <3

sweet.
if only coincidences as such happens more often than it already does. but i guess i've gotten my fair share of coincidences and i'm happy and contented with this share that we chanced upon (:

rhythm

2009-07-25T20:27:00.003+08:00

lifegroup last week watched nooma the series by rob bell which were short videos on biblical principles and values one could follow. i heart nooma.

rhythm.
*having a relationship with God is simply about being in tune with the song.

let's elaborate on this.
there were two issues that were covered.
1. Song
song refers to our daily lives in general (:
the song is always playing all the time.

2. Tune
tune refers to the way we choose to live our lives (: the style in which we lead our lives. Jesus iz the way, truth and life. not to start a new religion but to show us an example of how to lead our lives. a relationship with God was illustrated to as a song, He is the main tune like the piano that played throughout the whole song piece. we on the other hand are the instruments that compliment that tune. when we strum accordingly, joining in with the tune, it brings about a melody. a song of unity, harmony, strength and power, one that iz even more beautiful than an individual component on it's own (:

but when we choose to play our own music, choose to disregard that tune and follow our own tune.. it's a racket, not music.

so friends,
think about it..
what tune are you playing right now?
how does God's tune sound like to you?

what more can we want if we can know the tune of God and follow it.
i hope "we" iz in tune with God's tune (:

quit complaining.

2009-07-21T13:37:00.002+08:00

complaining = internal strife
where there iz internal strife, there isnt unity.
place of unity = place of power
therefore,
place of power = place of unity = no internal strife = no complaining.

complaining iz like gossiping?
it divides the people.
or at least it divides the person's heart.

and because a group iz only as strong as it's weakest 'link'. it's no good that one falls away, and the others are trying to hold together. remember finding nemo? yeahhhh. swim down fishy. swim down together.

swim together nat.

itdawneduponme

2009-07-21T07:38:00.003+08:00

it dawned upon me

am i really caught up in my own circle that i cant fit into any other circle?
i never seem to be able to click with most people even though i might be around them. it's as if there isnt even a friendship being forged. i know them by names but nothing more than surface deep knowledge. when i'm around them, it's juz normal. we laugh, we talk. and it's just about small talks. so much so that you find yourself excluded for whatever reasons.

more like a neutral party?
they dun hate me,
but neither do they love me.
they're juz 'okay' with me.

i know it's true.
but iz that a good thing?
it's as though in everyone there's this glass thin barrier. and i reckon i might know what's mine.
i guess this makes me even more thankful for the minority that arent part of the neutral party.
why does everything keep dawning upon me of late!!!!
dawn, dusk. maybe it's telling me i need to start waking up earlier.

the truth will set you free

2009-07-20T19:20:00.006+08:00

*reflect and repent
i guess the truth will set you free
but the truth hurts?
i guess that's why it's the truth?

at the end of the day, it's still the truth that matters.
because the truth will set you free.

free from your limited mind capacity
free from your boxed in thinking
free from your imagination into God's imagination
and most of all,
free from what's holding you back from stepping into your potential

i guess i wouldnt deny that i've been struggling alot with this issue for like what seems to be ages. anyways, keith's got a really good post up today (: 20th July. go have a read!

after this post, will i still be the same as before this post?
i hope not.
countless times i've tried to make that decision to change. countless times i seem to have failed. and i guess we always have to learn things the hard way round.
shut your trap nat. there's a reason why it's called a trap. because it traps. who are you to say the things you've said. quit complaining. quit that slandering. quit that superiority complex. juz quit it. you're but juz a slave girl whom God set free. serving God because you WANT to. disregard your pride and your shortcomings. if God forgave you, why cant you forgive others. why cant you forgive yourself..

are you making a difference?

2009-07-19T13:20:00.005+08:00

Not so long ago,
i was invited to join this group called Global Harvest Network in FB. considering i'm in aussie, i'm considered to be global right? haha x) so yeahhhh, i've been receiving like FB messages that some turn out to be not so relevant. but having the mind to leave the group.. i received this message and i decided it's but juz messages. and it does spark off that little bulb in my brain at times too. so why not? (:

Make a difference where you stand.
The gift of time is at your hand. Live your dreams and dream out loud.
For dreams are allies, make them proud! Have your say and live your choice, Listen to your "inner voice" There is no thing you can't do. It's always, always up to you! You can't depend on your judgment when your imagination is out of focus. We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done. The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity. The quality of a person's life is in direct proportion to their commitment to excellence, regardless of their chosen field of endeavor. The Bible tells us to love our neighbors, and also to love our enemies; probably because generally they are the same people. I'd rather be a could be if I cannot be an are; because a could be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has been than a might have been, by far; for a might have been has never been, but a has was once an are.

so yeah (:
there's so many things in it that's bolded, that i might as well juz bold the whole thing (:

it's all up to me (:
to be a could be and a has been (:
not a might have been.

term break 09

2009-07-17T15:16:00.009+08:00

this term break has made me want to stay in melbourne for a little longer. that i might have made the wrong decision to want to head back so early? well maybe not (: pros and cons? i guess despite my complaining how boring melbourne iz and how boring melbourne can be, with friends around, there's no such thing as boredom (: with makes sense, wherever there is friends, there iz fun.

during my last week of holidays, i finally understood and saw how a group of friends can really make a whole lot of difference in my life. for the past week, i've been meeting up with the same group of friends, my church friends here (: opening up my house and inviting them over for dinner, cooking together at my place(even though they're the ones doing most of the cooking), doing things together. last minute decisions to drive around looking for nice yummy stuff to eat (: it finally feels as though i belong somewhere here.

it finally feels like i am myself again?
being that busy meeting people person.
being that person who's finally doing things not juz for herself and for the others around.
well it did dawn upon me that my coming to melbourne isnt juz about me completing my degree. it did dawn upon me that having been here for 5months, i've yet to achieve anything that i would want to hold on to during my stay here. keith was right, God iz universal, He isnt limited by geographical boundaries, so what makes me even tink that my serving God should only be back in home and not here. i need to do more things for God here, i want to do more. it does feel as though without that part, it's like a piece of me isnt right..
and i chanced upon the opportunity that through the club, i can impact more people. because we know that He is worth it (: one thing i will always rem. i'm not here to join smth that's already fun. i'm here to be the fun.

i AM getting really rusty. i need more oil. fresh oil would be nice (: seeing 9 new faces at lifegroup was definitely heartening (: even though 99% of the new friends who joined us were all males. we females are totally outnumbered now (: but i'm sure God loves both males and females alike (:

so, school has started again, and i'm back to lectures and tutorials. i'm only the first week into uni and i can feel the stress building at foreseeing the upcoming and oncoming workload i'll be facing. i'm one week into uni and yes, bff, i'm already lagging behind cuz one week has already past me by. it's time to start the student's life.

anyways,
i realised i didnt reply my dearest taggers!
apologies and i shall do it here :p
chuanz: i hope it's not my footwear? but, it doesnt really explain why it's still hurting even after 1and half weeks! ): maybe cuz i haven stopped walking yet :p
yiren: linked!
tayxi: you guys could take shadow shots too! :D see you in 3months' time! (:
dt: thanks for spamming (:

sorry for not updating my blog!
and if this post iz all over the place, pardon me cuz i decided i needed to blog but i juz couldnt sort out my brain to blog :p so yeah (:

til i bored and decide to blog again :p

raejunnat outing!

2009-07-08T18:59:00.004+08:00

i have no idea what i did ):
i muz have walked too much today and my ankle iz hurting like noone's business right now ): i wonder. never had this before! not even from walking over long distances! maybe it's because i wasnt in the proper footwear? HMMM.

anyways (: on a brighter note,
met rae and jun today! (:
despite being in Melbourne, this iz the first time we met together as 3people! :D drank juice, lunched at European, walked to Carlton gardens to absorb some vit.D, ate cupcakes for desserts, walked to near Ed's place and played in the playground, and took alot of random photos :p and i changed my flight ticket from november to october! x) so dearest avid readers who await my unwanted (too bad!:p) presence back in Singapore, i'll be back between the middle and end of october! exact date will haha not be revealed on my blog :p ask and you shall receive! :D

wicked: for good

2009-07-05T14:45:00.006+08:00

Not that this song holds a special meaning to me at this point in time. i juz like this song (: and if you love it too, you know why we are so addicted to Wicked (: i juz added the lyrics in for comfort of my dearest beloved readers (: i heart Wicked! <3

For Good
by Idina Menzel

ELPHABA
I'm limited:
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you:

GLINDA
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

ELPHABA
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

GLINDA
Because I knew you:

BOTHI have been changed for good

ELPHABA
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

GLINDA
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

BOTH
And none of it seems to matter anymore

GLINDA ELPHABA
Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

BOTH
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?

GLINDA
And because I knew you:
ELPHABA
Because I knew you:

BOTH
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.

feasting saturday

2009-07-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

ROAR (:
another day of massive eating.
went for a early morning jog after breakfast with Keith. at least that made me not wake up at 12noon everyday during this term break. x)

realized that jogging in the morning drizzle iz really such a good feeling (: purrfect
even though i'm still not used to jogging in the morning, i tink i might juz be more motivated to start jogging in the mornings. lesser people around, fresher air(?). i guess the most important thing iz that the playground iz empty? to the extend that playgrounds are built for kids 12 and under, no matter what, a playground iz still where i grew up.

but from a not so young kid's and an jogger's point of view, the playground actually holds some basic freeweights exercises for strength and conditioning. had another filming session with Dawson on thurs, learnt more simple exercises to do without the use of machines in the gym. but due to the lack of equipments such as weights and even steps at home. the playground had so much to offer for my exercise needs (: from steps to pullup bars to instability platforms. hearts.

so yeahhhh (:
have been having difficulty sleeping the past few days ): like as if i'm suddenly afraid of the dark and silence the night brings. but thankfully for this teenage thing called a lava lamp that my sister brought over for me (: i've been catching winks after lying in bed for up to hours x) so i decided to take a picture to commemorate my lavalamp (:
secondly,
my landlord drove over today.
and for the first time, i realized my landlord drove a sleek posh car. sneakily snapped a picture of it since my room was facing our driveway anyway :p
okay, i dunno what else i want to blog about already.
before lunch Keith came over to impart more guitar skills as per always (: happy that Keith taught me more stuff to practice (: happy i'm learning more and at least i'm improving somewhere somehow (:

lunched together with doreen at Nonya hut. had nasilemak, laksa and chakwayteowwww! chendol and ondehondeh for desserts (: all that singapore food x)
went to help church setup and dinnered after that. 3 plates of taipei rice with different ingredients and fried tofu. plus taro cake for desserts (:

all that food.
need to jog tmr...
and tmr will be yet another day of nothing to do.
purrfectttt.

bored!

2009-07-01T13:48:00.001+08:00

boredboredbored
i found PAC-MAN on the internet and i've been playing it all day long!! (:

watched transformers last night and it was super action packed. so sad can! ): but i shant spoiler lest my BFF comes after me :p i shall post more after Sunday (:

anyway, few quotes i chanced upon on FB again!!

Good Leaders Are Good Followers. A rebel at heart will never lead anybody in the Church. To be a good leader, you have to be a good follower. Those who want to do their own thing will never lead anybody, but those who know how to follow will soon become leaders. You have to get in line behind someone else before others can get inline behind you!

uh-huh (: being rebellious in nature iz so not going to make you a disciple of His. to be a shepherd, you gotta learn to be a sheep. and if you dun have your own shepherd above you, how could you know you're actually in the right track? (: it is never and will never be a one man show (:

one apple a day keeps the doctor away.
BUT, if the doctor is handsome, throw the apple away..

haha den i chanced upon this too!! :D HAHA interesting (: if all the doctors in the world at handsome, there would be no more need for apples. LOL

recently..
i was thinking..
wouldnt it have been nice if i was born blonde :p

*tosstoss hahaha (:
thanks to Keith, i'm nursing a Wicked addiction (:
toodles!

everything in everything!

2009-06-29T08:41:00.007+08:00

first of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENUFF! (:
you're getting all the attention everywhere now. cuz it's your special day. a day that only comes once a yearrrrr. and the day that you officially enter the big 2 zone :p i wont be joining you soon. THANK GOD. haha x) enjoy your dayyyyyyyyyyyyy! i'm sure it wont be as bad as you tink it would be. but please remember to have a birthday cake and make your birthday wish before the day ends! (:

okok.
time for Wicked quotes! (:
den again, i only remember 2 of them. bleh!
ohoh, i juz learnt how to use the quote thingy cuz dt 'taught' me how. and yaaaa! for the first time!!! :D

the truth iz not fact or reason. the truth iz what people agree with.

i guess this iz why sometimes false truths are still truths too. it's kinda true that the truth sometimes isnt actually what's right. which makes sense when they say the truth hurts. and in that, we're actually talking about the absolute and real truth.

dun wish, dun start.
wishing only wounds the heart.

really true? i have been thinking for quite some time already. and though sometimes it feels as though we could take things from where we left off. i still cant get over the fact that i did that previously. i wished i could turn back the clock to right the wrongs i've done. but i guess i shouldnt wish, i shouldnt start at all. because i know i've missed your turning point in life, and you missed mine. we're both totally changed individuals, whose paths still cross but never would it head the same direction again.

-------------------------------------------------

i guess for now, i'm still enjoying my holidays (:
didnt go the road trip doreen, jisun and friend planned for. feels kinda relieved that i'm not going as well? instead, i'm rotting at home.

few things i need to do

change my flight ticket
see a dentist
call helena and rick
buy a printer

few things i've already planned to do

tuesday night transformers movie! (:
thursday filming with my lecturer (:
saturday meet raello and jun

i still have alot of days to plan for smth to do...
shall hope Keith will be able to plan for me to head over to his place to help him clean up his place or smth! sounds like smth fun i could do with my time (:

20th June! (:

2009-06-26T21:04:00.013+08:00

after a longlonglonglong week.
i am officially sick of Melbourne :D

and i'm very sure my sister iz too :p
20june event came and went by in a whizzzzzzzz.
i guess to the extend that we're both sick of Melbourne, i still kinda wish she was here longer. emofied when she left ): i went on a shopping spree after seeing her through the gates ):

so what did we do here in Melbourne (:
Day1: sleep + SPA at my old house + subway cookie break fast! :D
which reminds me, i didnt mention that i've shifted already! my new place iz really nice except that the kitchen iz forever dirty no matter how many times we soap clean it. my housemates apparently use alot of oil in their cooking :D

Day2: church + city tour? + massive dinner-cum-supper-cum-postsupper-cum-desserts? :D
a very gloomy day and it RAINED. crabsticks. we randomly took the free tourist shuttle and almost got lost :D terrible. first and last time on that tourist shuttle! after that Keith was nice to meet us for dinner (: and singgih tagged along. it was a massive night of eating :D
dinner: prata with curry, roti john, nasi rendeng thingy
supper: San Churros Cafe. hot chocolate with a blob of ice cream *YUM, and spanish dough pieces with chocolate fondue. *YUMYUM
post-supper: Freddos gelato icecream :D they have a roche flavour..
postpost-dessert: Kripsy Kreme! :D we bought 12dozen donuts at the factory outlet. and sampled a FRESHLY baked donut. saw the wall glaze and how the donut was made. (:sometimes i wonder how come my tummy never seems to be full. delicious (:

Day3: Shrine of Remembrance + St. Kilda's + Docklands
sun was out! (: we decided to take the recommended walk around the secret gardens in Melbourne city. YA RIGHT. we walked only 8 out of the 24stops. haha okay, the walks were boring and tiring :p so we decided to skip everything else and took the tram down to the beach! (: stopping over for ColdRock ice cream first :p
we actually wanted to head over to the tallest residential building in the city to watch sunset, but we hung around too long at the beach (: but it was still perfect. sunset along the beach (: walking without shoes, feeling the lovely sand between your toes, admiring the sun as it sets beyond the horizon (:met john at docklands for dinner at hot chocolate and fish'n'chippery! (: big piece of fish for $8.50 iz really worth it (: considering fish isnt very cheap here (: was a really nice time catching up with an old friend and neighbour (: which naturally my sister and john has alot in common because they're both medical students. and i would juz listen cuz i dun understand anything :p which made me realize that i really need to brush up on my intellectual knowledge of things..

Day4: Fitzroy Garden + St. Patrick's Cathedral + Parliament + Crown
another nice sunny day (: got our tickets to the musical!!! :D stopped over at treasury gardens, walked through without seeing anything. Fiztroy garden, walked around the paths. lotsa trees and there was a model tudor village! those small dwarf houses were soooo cute! but it wasnt open for public access ): headed in the general direction of the city and landed at St. Patrick's Cathedral. nice photo place. walked further general direction and got back to the city. more photos of the parliament building and its steps. and den it decided to rain. NOT FUN. walked in the rain for like 987654321mins to find the restaurant Keith recommended for good tangy chicken pizza!
dinner: Mark's place. wedges. tangy chicken pizza, seafood fetuccine.
dessert: subway cookies!
post-dessert: Max Brenner's. my sister had a white chocolate, and an american marshmallow chocolate for me. and we shared a chocnutbrowniewithicecream. yummmmthis was the day we were STUFFED. literally :p
keith came down and brought us to see the fire show display at Crown Casino :p but because we were too early, they decided to go into the Casino. *&^%$#@! haha, and they didnt get checked for their ID. but i didnt manage to pass through unchecked! ROAR! deliberately they walked past different entry points to see if the security would still check my ID. BUT! i was smart :p i didnt smile while walking past :p soooo, i only got checked once! woots! :D

Day5: SHOPPING + WICKED! (:
the best day in the week? :D SHOPPING! (: keith recommended the nike factory outlet along smith street. upon arrival, we realised that it isnt juz nike there. there's adidas, new balance, brooks, converse, ripcurl, sadie, timberland, kathmandu, champion and lotsssss more. in the 5shops we walked into, we bought at least one item from each :p but of cuz we're talking about $20-$40 per shop :p headed for pancakes at pancake parlour! den to the direct factory outlet mall and shopped half of it before keith picked us up for dinner at nasi lemak house!
dinner: Nasi Lemak House. 5different dishes shared among 5 people. curry, fried mee, nasi lemak x2, kwayteow (:
rushed to Regent to catch our musical! (: it was WICKED. seriously wickedly good (: i'm starting to tink i might get addicted to watching musicals (: and i learnt that in the Wizard of Oz show, the wicked witch of the west was a good person pushed and forced to take that route. and she did not die. wow. but watching it blew my mind away (: i'll share a few quotes in my next post i guess (: hopefully i rem them (:after dinner, we went for LATE NIGHT supper (:
supper: cookies and cream CHEESECAKE (: yummmm. i love my cheesecakes (: at any time of the day (:
Day6: Mt.Dandenong + Doncaster + Lifegroup
John was nice to join us for a day. he drove us up to Mt.Dandenong to see trees. LOL. nah, he asked around and brought us to this place with like deliciously sumptuous pies :p but cuz we went there too early, the soup wasnt ready yet O.o we got directed to a scenic lookout (not the one we were looking for - but we didnt know) so we walked down into the forest trying to find what we're looking for. we ended up walking for 1hour in a circle in improper trekking attires! AH! but it was a good walk, worked up our appetites (:lunch: pie in the sky(sky pie:p). pie floaters + chicken korma pie + ice choc + bowl of chips!
after lunch, we got directions to the right scenic lookout point: SkyHiGH. overlooked the city of Melbourne (: more photos.
left, headed for Doncaster shopping centre to be there only to be awed by the enormousity of the place. came back for lifegroup.after lifegroup, we went for naddie's last supper :p
supper: 6dishes shared among 7people. 2bowls of congee, horfun(not soggy:p), youtiao, 1whole roasted duck and roasted pork with rice.

Day7: naddie left ):John was nice to push back his appointment to send naddie to the airport. so after walking around the very boring airport. naddie went in and i felt emo so i bought jellybeans. skybused myself back to city after naddie left. shopped at DFO and got myself an $8.80 bag. good deal. love it. trained back to BoxHill and bought my mirror, clothes rack and grocery shopped a little.
end of day.

haven calculated our total spenditure for these past 6days. but i definitely know for sure that more than 50% of the cost will be on food. haha x)

i miss naddie now.
and i'm nuturing a serious sleep debt now. reaching home at midnight on the average for the past 6days. waking up at 730am to cook/wash/etc. i need to sleep.
and i hate the internet today.
everything iz lagging and not working juz when i desperately needed it ):
good night world.

why is 6 afraid of 7?! x)

2009-06-17T13:55:00.003+08:00

OMGOMG!!
I SO HAVE TO BLOG THIS! :D

Why is 6 afraid of 7?!
Because 7 8 9 (seven ate nine)!! :D
zomg, hilarious! :D
thanks kenuff :p for unintentionally brightening up my day after a *&^%$#@!~-ing paper. as jud would say, it's dtmopt? HUH! actually like dt, i have no idea what that means too. hmmm. enlightenment jud? x)

oh ya, if you're erm, still dun get it.. highlight the space under the question to get the answer (:
wheee!

75% done with exams and counting down to 20 june! 1more paper, 3more days to "naddie meets baddie" day. x) haha, i'm getting addicted, seriously addicted.

thermoreceptors.

2009-06-13T13:54:00.008+08:00

ROAR!
i got my full name on FB! (:

anyway,
studying today gave me new insights to why people say you'll gain weight when you go the colder countries :p

weight distribution affects thermoregulation :p
in other word, individuals with more subcutaneous fats lose heat at a slower rate. so that's why they say fats keep you warm.. hmmm

den again,
as a thermoreceptor's purpose iz to regulate body temperature..
when it gets cold, the heat-gain mechanism iz turned on! and that includes shivering (which iz due to an increase in muscle tone), and non-shivering mechanisms to vasoconstrict the blood vessels to conserve energy! and non-shivering mechanisms include the release of hormones to increase metabolism(in the liver and muscles). which breaks down body stores of glycogen which means losing weight!
woots! i'm so going to immune myself to cold and not turn the heater on! i can lose weight by feeling cold.

WOW.

but first,
i need to stop eating.
stop putting back all that used up glycogen..
i'm so using my blog as a studying tool 8)

lover of my soul! (:

2009-06-12T09:15:00.004+08:00

woots (:
i juz got home from my psych paper this morning!
i wouldnt say it's easy cuz i know there's this concept that says if you tink it's easy you're kinda screwed :p

but anyway, despite having exams the morning after, i decided to make it a point to go for cell group here (: and i'm actually happy i did. and i have to thank God for that! the previous few days were realy unfruitful studying. but i asked for help to make my day fruitful, and He really did! so that i can make it for CG (:

in the world we're always told not enough time, you'll never be able to do it. taking that few hours off to attend CG iz going to compromise your performance in your exams and assignments. but actually, it's always opposite in the Kingdom of God. but most of the time, it's always hard to get this simple truth and fact into ourselves. it's like knowing that Christ iz in us, and yet we still cannot accept and believe it. we humans are all funny creatures :p

but anyway, it chanced upon me that going for CG isnt going for CG. well that might not make sense at all logically. but matter of fact, i'm there not because it's yet another CG. i'm there because it's yet another meeting with Him. even though sometimes we dun feel like Him and i'm not that attached to the CG here. but it's still the same. i'm there because it's like a date with Him (: you wouldnt miss a special date because of tests and homework would you? He's the lover of my soul and i need to view Him likewise as a lover. sounds mushy but still fact.

last but not least,
Keith cooked really YUMMY nasi lemak rice!
everytime i taste nice good singapore food, it makes me miss home that wee bit more than i already am.

misses! (:

comments are up!

2009-06-10T11:56:00.003+08:00

WOOTS! (:
truckload of thanks to DT!! (:
he's the official technical helpline of mine. and a very good one too!

so yupp,
you can now begin to comment on my blog!
if anyone even wants to comment..
click on the heart after i sign off! (:

uh-huh!
but due to unforseen circumstance, my blog iz now better viewed using mozilla firefox. i stil dun get it why there's that gap between my date and (new!)title, and the line. and i cannot make it disappear on IE! bleh. i will have to make do with that.

OKOK POLL.
should i leave the title as this?
OR.. (click the title) that.?

but yupp, satay beehoon for dt! :D

where did it go.

2009-06-08T13:25:00.004+08:00

concentrate on studying nat.
concentrate.

but i cant.
things are happening and i cant do anything about it.
it reminds me of the movie click. i wont be able to go back to that point in time because i simply arent there. depressing, disappointing. it's a vicious cycle that follows one after another. how can i break it when i'm not even there!! frustrating, infuriating. i cant make a difference. it's useless for me to break down. there's noone that's going to comfort me, and it's not going to help but make it worse with a headache.

pick yourself up nat.
there is no dead-end with God.
there must be a solution somehow or another.
but God, remember. but God.

swine flu!

2009-06-08T10:49:00.002+08:00

zomg!
i juz saw the new moon trailer!
i so wanna watch it (:

last night naddie was telling me she might not be able to come over after exams cuz of the pig flu ): i'm praying hard the situation will get better in the next 2weeks! i didnt know swine flu became such a serious thing in Melbourne. i thought it was juz rapidly rising numbers but apparently we're classified an affected area already! and the last i heard was that we changed from contained to sustained on saturday. lol.

pray hard alright?
i'll be devastated if she cant make it.
but den again, i guess i've still got my last book breaking dawn to tide me over 3weeks of boredom.
so looking forwards to the end of exams (:

quotes!

2009-06-07T20:01:00.011+08:00

HAHA
i juz chanced upon this on FB.
love this once i saw it.

If you love her, peel the 2 prawns for her. If she loves you, she will give one of the peeled prawn to you. - Zhenxian's status

some people juz have really interesting stuff on their FB status and walls. it's really interesting to actually read them at times. and you'll never know perhaps they could actually kick some sense into you.

amanda faith being herself has really good ones as well too (:
most of the time it's really profound that half the time i cant grapse the underlying meaning.. but here's some (:

* sometimes the smartest things, are the most simple
[proven with the following]
* either live the life you love, or love the life you live. period.
[no other way to make the most outta life! (:]
* so many people have a heart for God, but they miss the heart of God. [revelation. now you know your focus]
* time to abstain from food and drink that's bad for the voice.. after i'm done with this chocolate bar :p [resist chocolate? NEVER (:]
* God doesnt have a sadistic interest in proving us wrong: His interest lies in showing us the real truths, and making us right with Him [that's smth to ponder on]
* many are called, few are chosen, and even fewer are found faithful. And there is no greater honor than being called 'faithful'
[well done my good and faithful servant, natalia? (:]
* the Bible is your mirror, the Holy Spirit your conscience, Jesus your ideal. and God your sovereign judge. not other people
[there ken! conscience! (:]
* suffering is not a random hit from a sniper's rifle [HAHA:D]
* things dun always go according to plan, but sometimes the unprecedented is juz better, cuz while we may lose control, He never does [yupp, it's fun-er that way]
* we always learn more when we are teaching and imparting than when we're listening to someone else speak [teach and learn!]
* of cuz people go mad trying to prove/disprove God's existence! one juz cannot comprehend an infinite being with a finite mind.
* the size of one's church/CG doesnt matter, if the size of the people's faith, God-dependence, and hearts dun increase [totally]
* sometimes the things we frantically search for, are really just right under our noses (: [stop searching and start EMBRACE-ing!!!!]

so yeah,
juz some of those that catches me (: